Il living vicariously through
Her
him
&
Them
Im alone
So goddamn alone
And I'm back in that rut
I tried opening up to change
I even tried to have my own firsts
But it isn't enough
My best I friend has been in a relationship for a year and a half
My other best friend has people lining up to be with her
So sure she just now started to be in a relationship with someone
But she's been running after that someone for 2
years
And now she's living the Dream
And I'm yet again 2 steps behind everyone
Not only am I alone, but people are starting to
pretend they're more mature just because they've
touched a dick and kissed someone's lips
romantically
I've kissed twice as many people as they have
But it isn't enough
Cuz they're just friends at a party
Everyone's better than me because their stories are
getting a proper happy ending
High school is almost over and everyone's happy
except me
What is wrong with me?
What is so fucking repugnant about me?
Is it that I'm not enough?
Or that I'm too much?
Or just a friend?
A dumbass?
A smartass?
A bitch with a stick up her ass?
A fucking retard?
Not mature enough?
Or too much?
What am I doing wrong?
What is so disgusting about me?
Am i just not pretty?
Is it because I don't fit in a box?
Im not basic enough?
Im not a good enough singer?
Im not mischievous enough?
Old enough?
Strong enough?
Independent enough?
Quirky?
Happy?
Sad?
Bitchy?
Enough....
I'm just not enough.....
YOU ARE READING
Whatever
RomanceA collection of stories, all in different formats, about life. There is no end goal, only truth, pain, lust, joy, sarcasm, irony and self awareness. Tread lightly as this story mentions some of my experience with SA. Good luck 🤞
