pinky promise. [Skephalo]

2 Idots hang out together

-Jacob-

I pushed away from my desk, running into the edge of the bed where it stabbed a big chunk of my chair, to which I ignored. I couldn't tell if I was concerned or too excited to form coherent sentences. What happened? Should I have not hung up on him? What would've happened if I didn't? And most importantly, is he okay?

I threw myself off my seat and hurried myself to the phone I threw on my bed carelessly. I spammed him, hoping his phone would ping over and over, but after sudden realization he wouldn't have his notifications on, even after we talked. He never did, and he most likely never will.

Damn, what a deus ex machina. I paced around frantically worrying if I had made the wrong choice. His personality didn't help, seeing as he hadn't checked his notifications in a whole year.

I had been staying in touch with Mega though. We had been on several video calls, yet he still never talked. I wondered why, but didn't bother to ask him.

I don't want to scare him away.

I had been thinking about him recently, a lot more than I would like to admit. He'll tease me, or whatever is considered possibly flirting. I hope he wasn't playing, because it drives me crazy. I come back to him for more like some little kid. He's like a grandma with cookies- Okay, it sounds bad worded like that but people like cookies and grandmas have a crap ton of them. Really, where they get all them though??

I constantly check for messages or notifications, even when I know that my phone hasn't gone off, or he probably hasn't texted me.

Best friends sometimes fall in love right? Gah, no. I'll get over it, he's playing. Joking. Yeah.. Right. Right?

I let out a lovesick sigh and threw myself onto the bed, looking at the ceiling fan. I smiled to myself thinking how much of an idiot I was for OBVIOUSLY falling for him. I would do anything for him. Anything.

I wondered if sometimes he thought the same things. If it was over text, then you have no clue how they meant it. Sometimes tone is all you need. A suggestive one, a shy one, and flustered one, no matter what, it always almost gives you away.

Why did I have to fall in love with some mute..

Oh well, if we get married it's not like he's gonna use sign language to say 'I do.'

Wait- MARRIAGE?!

Fuck- Stop thinking about him! Stop stop stop. No. Get him out of your head, he doesn't like you back.

Or does he?

SJDSKJNKJNAKNDKJSNEFK NO AHHHH SERIOUSLY STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM!

Ugh, I'm such a fool. It's guaranteed he doesn't like me back, or ever will. Will he? Omg stop- what the hell is wrong with me? He's always on my mind, 24/7. Even a stupid green scarf would remind me of him. If I start saying I love you without saying no homo, would he catch on?

That's stupid.. I hate being subtle. I can't wait that long. FUCK WE'RE ABOUT TO MOVE INTO A HOUSE TOGETHER AHHHHHHHH WHAT THE HELL-

OKAY STOP PANICKING IT'LL BE OKAY

AHHHHHHHHHH

GO INTO PANIC MODE

OH MY GOD NO DON'T

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WHAT THE HELL DO I DO KNOW

IM GONNA BE SO SHY HE'S GONNA KNOW SOMETHING'S UP.