to be or not to be

TWELVE

+12

after the whole situation at the high school reunion, i haven't seen aaliyah since then. she blocked my number once again and now we were back to square one.

we had a counseling visit and mr. bowers called her like thirty times, no exaggeration. she stood us up which was expected on my part.

mr. bowers questioned her appearance since he knew that we were living together again. i told him the truth which was i didn't know. i called jimin and he told me that he also didn't know where she was. so the only choice i had was dean.

i did my best to not think about her having an infidelity but i couldn't be mad at her. talking to aimee again was probably the last straw. aimee did so much shit to us during our relationship and i'm shocked that aaliyah and i managed to get married.

but besides that, her relationship with dean is what really sparked my interest. were they just friends or is there something beneath the surface? he seemed like someone a woman would go for to cheat on their significant other with.

was she not going to tell me about him or did she think that i'd magically know? everything was just jumbled up and i don't know where to start first.

because of her missing our appointment, we have to go back tomorrow and longer than we hoped.

***
"still no sign of your wife?" jackson handed me a beer as we sat down on his front porch.

"nope, ever since aimee pulled that stunt she's been calling me non stop."

jackson placed his hands up and sighed. "joonieee," he began. "now why would you do that? you know how exes get."

"i know but i didn't think she would swoop that low, i'm even more mad because she told aaliyah that we were talking for months. lord knows what this girl is probably thinking."

"well, did you do anything that would make her overthink?"

i hesitated. lu's late night bar kept replaying in my head. i'm not sure if aaliyah put two and two together and realized that i was there with aimee or she really believed that i cheated on her with someone.

"yeah i did." i responded.

jackson placed his beer down and sat there thinking. "maybe its time that you guys sit down and be completely honest. pure, bare, and unedited. tell each other every single thing that you guys never told each other."

and thats the thing. i don't think i'm ready for that.

"when did you get so wise when it comes to relationships? you barely could keep a stable one."

"i grew up and matured namjoon, maybe that's something you need to do." he told me.

jackson's words stung but he was right. in order for my relationship to continue, i have to man up and right my wrongs.

"thanks man, i really needed this talk from you." i took the last few sips of my beer and threw it away.

jackson shook his head and hugged me. "no problem man, you know i got you for life."