Angel's Lie (Mafia)

Time For a Break

When I step into the house it's quiet, I hope everyone is in bed for the night so I dont have to talk to anyone. I should've stayed with Sean while he made sure the garage was locked, but I'm so tired. Not only mentally but physically. I feel like I have said this a million times but I can't do it anymore. From the time I've moved back to New York I feel like every week, there is a new secret that is being revealed to me.

I walk to my room thankful that I didn't bump into anyone. I turn my phone on for the first time since leaving to find missed calls and text from Grayson. I dont bother reading any of them, I send a quick goodnight text to Sean thanking him for going on a ride with me. I feel so close to him now. He listens to me and doesn't keep secrets, something we have in common is that we don't know much about anything, It's honestly...refreshing knowing that there is someone out there who isn't keeping anything from me and is just as surprised I was when I tell him everything. Grayson knows everything about me, he knows things that I don't even know about myself, but with Sean, he doesn't. I can tell him things and he has a genuine reaction because he didn't know before.

It's all so much, maybe I should move back to California. I took a gap year not only because I still haven't decided what to major in but to get to know my family and see what I have missed out on, turns out it wasn't much. I was trying to decide on a college in New York, maybe one close to this house so I can stay here but maybe I should go to college in California. I miss my Grandmother dearly, and even though I know she is in good hands with T.J. I still want to be there for her.

Without thinking I go straight to my computer and book a flight to California. Two weeks, that's all I need, two weeks away from this house. I'm not going to tell father about this trip, let's see how he likes surprises. The plane is scheduled to leave in two days so I guess I'm going to stay in my room for the next two days trying my hardest to avoid everyone.

I see the pictures still on the floor so I go over and pick them up. I can't help but feel bad for my father every time I look at pictures where he's with my mother. Every single picture that he's with her he is smiling like he won the lottery, and the pictures where they're both looking at each other makes my heart melt. I can tell they were both in love with each other. I could never imagine what he went through, he lost the love of his life when their lives were just getting started. Then I pick up the pictures of me and Grayson, it seems like every other day there's something else to get upset about with him. He's just as bad as my father, he lies and keeps secrets. I keep trying to get the friendship back that we had when we were kids but it's not going to work. At this point, it's all business and I don't believe we can ever go back to being the best friends that I would dream about in California. I pick up a picture of me and KB that I specifically remember giving father when he came to visit me in Calfornia. I miss her, she was my only friend in California. I pick up the rest of the pictures and put them back in my closet. I turn my phone back on and scroll until I find KB's number and quickly dial it. I patiently wait for the dial tone to stop so I can hear her voice again.

"Wow, my little cousin finally calls me!" I can't help but smile at her voice, its' always been on the deeper side and always loud and exciting.

"The phone works two ways, you could've called me."

"You got me there, let's just say it was both of our faults, so what's up, I heard you were back in New York with your father and brothers, did you get to finally see Grayson, the dude I've been hearing about since forever."

"Yeah, It's not how I imagined it would've been but I dont want to get into that. I was calling to ask if you were taking any summer classes at the moment?"

"Nope, well one, but its all bullshit, and I can do it online, that is if you're asking for me to go somewhere."

"Well I just booked a flight to California and I was thinking that maybe you could do the same thing?" There's a small pause but I'm relieved to hear a squeal come from the other end of the phone.

"I was thinking the same thing, of course, I can book a flight, I haven't seen Grandmother in forever, it'll be just like old times, and you can tell me what got you so sad."

"How do you know I'm sad?"

"I know you, I know that if this was a regular call you would have that pitchy, chirpy voice of yours going off about how much you missed New york, Grayson, and your brothers and father, not this sad ass asking me if I have classes type voice. I'm going to go book my flight right now."

"Thanks, KB, I love you."

"Love you too, see you soon."

After hanging up I decide to read Grayson's text message. I'm surprised when I see it was more of a paragraph than an I'm sorry that I'm so used to hearing.

Grayson - Angel, listen, this was it. There are no more secrets I swear. I know you are over all of the secrets but that was it. Your father was supposed to tell you everything when you came back but he never did. I don't regret telling you, even if you never talk to me again, you had the right to know. Please call me when you get home. I saw you get in the car with Seth, I just need to talk to you. Please don't shut me out again, I feel like every time you forgive me I ruin it by dropping another bomb, but there are no other bombs. I'm not going to ask for forgiveness because I know you, I know that there is no way of persuading you, whatever you decide is because it's what your heart desires. I understand if you don't want to talk to me for a while, but I will not stand for you to never talk to me again, I won't have it. I don't know if you can see but I'm working so hard to get you back in my life. please don't be too hard on your dad, he trying. I don't think you can see it but I swear to you he is.

I'm too tired to reply. I put my phone on the charger and change into pajamas. The anger in my body has yet to dissolve, the only way I can fall asleep is the excitement of me being on a plane in two days and being all the way across the country.