All That Is You

Chapter 30

There was nothing holding me down but for some reason, I couldn't move.

My vision was shrouded by darkness and I was too tired to open my eyes.

I could make out low murmurs of voices around me and I desperately clung onto them in hopes that they would be clearer and I could finally understand what was happening.

I was choking on fire and my body burned with a heat I couldn't escape.

There were moments where the heat faded to only slight discomfort and from the way someone was gently holding my hand, I knew it was Levi.

I wanted to tell him that I was okay, that there was nothing to worry about and ask him to never leave but my body refused to cooperate.

I felt him move away from me and I could almost feel the violent shudder that ripped through my body from the burning heat that came rushing back before I felt arms wrapping around me and soft lips pressing kisses to the top of my head.

I could barely make out Levi's voice, whispering assurances and pleading for me to open my eyes and it pained me to hear how drained he was. His voice was rough from exhaustion and I fought against the darkness to make my way back to him but my tiredness won and I succumbed to my fatigue once again.

Levi's P.O.V.

"She could have died" is what Melissa said.

"If she hadn't vomited, the wolfsbane would have done much more damage."

"She has internal scarring and it's likely that the Luna will never be able to have children."

"By the looks of the damage and the fact that her wolf is gone, it seems as though she's been undergoing wolfsbane poisoning for a while now."

I pressed my chin to the top of Rain's head and tiredly rubbed my eyes with the palm of my hand.

It had been a few hours since she was admitted to the hospital and it pained me to watch as she closed her eyes. I thought she was gone but the sparks I felt every time our skin brushed told me otherwise.

The fury that threatened to consume me when I found out that she had been poisoned had long dimmed and now all I could feel was a desperate yearning for her to wake up so I could hear those three words again and show her how much she means to me.

I pulled back and examined her. She was pale, so much paler than her normal complexion and she was so limp in my arms it almost seemed as though she was lifeless.

The hollowness in my chest grew as I cupped her cold cheek and brushed my thumb over her soft skin. I pressed my lips to her forehead.

"I got you, I promise," I whispered, hoping she could hear me. "I'm sorry, Rain."

"I'm sorry for disappointing you and letting you get hurt. I know I promised to never leave you and it seems as though I can't keep my promises. But this time, I'm not going to promise to never leave you, instead I promise to love and cherish you for the rest of my life. So, please, wake up Rain. Please, little moon."

She was here in my arms where she belonged and I held on tight, not knowing if the next minute would be our last.

It was starting to seem as though every decision I made was the wrong one and my life has been filled with regrets since the moment I met Rain. I regretted having fallen asleep before her numerous times when staying up even a few more seconds would have given me more time by her side. I regretted not giving her enough kisses because it seemed as though I was already forgetting the feel of her lips against mine. I regretted having gone on the pack run. I saw how concerned she was this morning and yet I still left her without an explanation.

Regrets. Regrets. Regrets. I had so many and yet no matter how much I wished I could change the past, there was nothing I could do but wait and hope for her to come back to me.

The bitter guilt was heavy on my mind and I knew I was at fault for what had happened. If I hadn't left her, she wouldn't be here, in this hospital. This hospital of white walls, beeping machines, and a lifeless Rain.

After August had informed me that there was a sighting of the Alpha of the Prometheus Pack, Rain's father, near our territory, I became preoccupied with how I could protect Rain. Especially after finding a message addressed to her stating that he was coming for her. But instead, it was my own stupidity that managed to get Rain hurt.

I had yet to talk to the pack members in charge of meals to find out who could have poisoned Rain's lunch. I didn't want to leave her side after everything that had happened.

I didn't want her to wake up without me by her side. I refused to be any more than a few feet away from her in case anyone were to attack her in the hospital.

The only people allowed in her room were Melissa, Leila, August, and Alexander. But everyone was so busy trying to find out who could have poisoned Rain and figuring out ways to go after Alpha William that no one had visited.

In all honesty, I wasn't sure how well I would handle anyone visiting since my wolf was territorial to the point where I would growl at Melissa when she came in to check on Rain.

I sucked in a breath of vanilla and jasmine. The sparks that danced along my skin told me she wasn't leaving, that she was okay. But the burning in my chest brought back the loneliness I had fought away for so long.

She was the moon that lit up my night sky and yet it felt as though she was slipping away. Like I was the sun and I couldn't run fast enough to reach her. Like these last few weeks with her were our eclipse and now it was time for us to part and I would have to greet a new day without her by my side.

"Please, don't leave me. I love you."