switch>> kylo ren

chapter six

It's been a week since we returned from our mission and since Kylo and I had our weirdly perfect night. I started training with Kylo the day after we returned and my abilities with the force blew myself and Kylo away. He has been acting quiet strange since we started training together. It seems as if he's jealous of something. He has started avoiding me in hallways and hasn't come to my room since we started training. Today was my off day with Kylo which meant I trained with the rest of the knights.

"Good morning sunshine, some one looks all kinds of happy today!" Vic joked as I walked in. "I suggest you keep your mouth shut today. I'm really not in the mood today Vicrul." I snapped back. He knew I was serious when I used his full name. I guess they all got the hint from my tone because no one else said anything for the rest of the session. We went rounds and rounds in hand to hand and each time I got knocked down by each of them, I was really off my game today. "That's enough for today." I said in defeat. They all looked around at me and shrugged before leaving. I thought I was alone until I hear Vicrul speak up. "Are you sure you're okay Octavia? You never go easy on us or let us out this early. What's going on?" I look at him and sigh. I've always felted the closest to Vicrul, he was the first one to let me in and became my first friend. "Is it about what happened back on the mission with you and Master Ren?" He questioned. I knew I could trust Vic and open up to him without receiving any judgment so that's exactly what I did. "Yeah it kind of it. It's just all so weird Vic. Like we had a really good moment the night we returned, then we started trained together, then he started getting all weird and avoiding me. Did I do something wrong?" "Look Octavia, you and I both know that nothing good would have came from that kind of relationship between both of you. I don't know if you were expecting him to fall in love with you or something but it wouldn't have been worth it." "I know I know. I never expected him to fall in love with me. I told him from the start not to fall in love with me. I'm not worthy of love anymore." I sigh out. It was true I wasn't worthy of anyone's love.

The next thing that happened shocked both Vicrul and I. Vicrul took my face and kissed me right on the lips. I won't lie it was a good kiss but it was almost like kissing your brother. "Never say that Octavia you are worthy of all the love. You will find someone that will change your mind about love. You just have to let people in more." My brain seemed to turn itself off and I just leaned into Vicrul. He leaned in as well and our lips connected again. This time they started to move in sync with one another. It started getting hot and steamed when Vic dragged me on to his lap. His hands started wondering along my body as he kissed down my jaw and on to my neck. Once I realized what I was doing I snapped back into reality. I pulled away and rolled off of Vicrul. "I'm sorry. I... I have to go." I managed to stutter out before running out of the training room. I AM SO STUPID. I CAN'T BELIEVE I JUST DID THAT. HOW COULD I HAVE MADE OUT WITH VICRUL?!?? I kept running until I finally reached my quarters. The walk/ run to my quarters seemed to take way longer than it usually did.

I jumped right into the shower and turned the water on as hot as it would go hoping it would wash away what just happened. It seemed like no matter how hard I scrubbed the images wouldn't go away. All I could fell were Vicrul's hands on my body and his lips on mine. I couldn't stand it I needed to do something to get my mind off of what happened.

After drying off and getting dressed I head down to the little bar to clear my head. I wasn't at the bar long when I was approached by Cardo. "Well hello there. Mind if I join you?" he asked. Before I could even respond he sat down next to me and the bar tender already had a drink placed down in front of him. We sat there and just made small talk for a while which was nice, it did get my mind off of what happened. "Okay I'm going to head back to my quarters now, I'll see you tomorrow for training." I said getting off of my stool. "Wait I'll walk you back." Cardo said getting off of his stool as well. I really didn't need an escort but I didn't argue. We walked back in silence until we were about to round the corner of my hallway. Suddenly Cardo stopped in his tracks. Time seemed to freeze in that moment, and he looked at me and kissed me. WHAT THE FUCK??? WHY WAS EVERYONE KISSING ME?!?? I pushed him off of me and looked at him in shocked. "Umm what was that about?" I questioned. He just looked at me for a moment before trying to lean in again. I pushed him away again and repeated my question. It took a second for him to respond but he finally did. "I heard about you and Master Ren and then I saw you with Vicrul. I thought I had a chance too. I guess I was wrong." "What happened with Kylo is nobody's business but ours and as for what happened with Vicrul, that was a mistake and it should never have happened. Now I suggest you walk away now and act like you never saw what happened today and did what you just did." I snapped before walking away towards my quarters.