In Return For - B.Gray

19 | surprising arrivals

-b l a k e-

"Will you fucking get up!" Josh yells as really cold water makes contact with my face.

"What the fuck!" I groan, getting up and taking a towel to dry myself up. "Are you fucking kidding me Josh!" I growl at him but he just shrugs.

"Look Blake, I fucking love you dude—" he sighs. "—but drinking this much will never be good for you," he frowns at me.

"I don't give a fuck," I reply in a monotone voice.

"Keep this up dude, and you'll be benched for the season. Wouldn't that be a waste of all the help you got from Kelsey," Bryce speaks from beside Josh.

"Don't bring her into this," I growl at the two once again.

It had been a couple weeks since she told me how she felt outside the Starbucks.

Two weeks of no Brynn. Two weeks of an absolute bullshit life. Two weeks of nonstop drinking.

"I have to! Is that gonna stop you! If I call her to come here!" Bryce yells a bit. "Dude, you have been drinking non stop. Yes we like to drink, but this is not safe at all." He stops yelling and says with a worried tone.

It sucked knowing I made the boys feel like this. Helpless and all. But it didn't matter anymore. What was the point in all of this! Of getting good grades to play football, truth be told, all of it doesn't matter to me. I'd rather quit football.

"Please man, don't make us ban you from drinking," Noah adds with a small smile.

"Is coach mad?" I ask. I hadn't been to a practise in two weeks. Coach must be pissed.

"Yeah, but we know if you show up and kick ass like usual, he'll be okay." Kio says.

You know how it feels to have all of your frat brothers just standing in front of you? It feels like a damn intervention.

My act needed to be cleaned up. But how could I clean up knowing the love of my life doesn't want to talk to me? She thinks that all it was, was a deal?

It meant so much fucking more to me and I can't stop thinking about the tears in her eyes when she told me all of this.

Flashback. . .

"Look Blake, we got what we wanted right? You got your good grade and you get to play football. And in return for it I got a life," She said, ending it off with a laugh. A laugh of Brynn that seemed faked.

She couldn't be saying this right now, it had to be a dream— a nightmare of some sort. This had to be a fucking joke!

"And it was good how long it lasted. But you don't need me anymore, so let's just stop okay?" No, no, no! No this isn't happening. I need her more than anything, more than she knows. She isn't trying to say goodbye to me. She can't say goodbye to me.

She promised.

"Y-you don't want to be friends anymore?" I ask in fear. I'll break down right there and then. But this had to be a joke! Bryce could be behind it? Maybe Noah or Josh? Maybe all of Sway? Please tell me this was a stupid prank.

"Yes," She whispers and I feel my heart shatter in a million pieces. How could she do this? Here I was, about to tell her I love her, and I had hope that she would say it back.

Fuck the 'I love you' she doesn't even want to be friends anymore.

"You don't want us to ever hang out again?" I ask again. Hoping that maybe something in her answer will give away if she means this. God please make her not mean it.

"Yes," is what she says. Then her eyes, which were bloodshot red, now deployed tears. Over and over again.

"Brynn, are you serious?" I whisper. She couldn't be! I kept telling myself it had to be something else! Anything else!

She nodded.

I stare at her. Her beautiful eyes that were crying. Her hair that was shining under the sunny light. I prepared myself. This was probably the last I would look at her like this.

Because I needed to forget her. I need to leave and say goodbye. She doesn't want me.

I take a deep breath and open my mouth.

"Bye Brynn," I whisper and before I break down in front of her, I walk away.

That was my goodbye.

End of Flashback. . .

The memory wouldn't stop replaying in my head.. over and over again. "Come to practise man, at least step out of the house," Noah says offering me a hand which I take.

I shower for the first time in a week and get ready to head out with the boys. I had to put this behind me, even though it was quite impossible.

After reaching the field, Coach takes one look at me and smiles a bit. "I hope I see aggression today," he says and I nod.

On the field, he asked me to show aggression. And only one think could make me angry like that.

The thought of Brynn with another guy. The thought of some fucker touching my girl is easy to rile my insides up and get my temper boiling.

"Fuck yeah Blake!" I hear a couple team members yell as I take out my anger and catch the ball, running in for a touchdown.

It had been a while.

"Better than ever Gray, you done good, but don't bail on practises anymore," Coach states firmly and I nod.

Practise ran late and worked as a good distraction.

Now was the hard part. Going home and not being able to drink. I had to stop the drinking for a while.

Once reaching home, I take another shower and head to my room. After changing and putting on some sweats and a T-Shirt, I stay in there to get started on a Biology assignment.

Yet another class I hadn't attended. Once I start, I get the hang of it and speed threw thanks to one person— Brynn.

After working for a couple hours, I hear my name being yelled from the living room— it was Noah. "Blake! Someone's here for you!" He yells and I hear a knock on my door.

After mumbling a 'come in' my door is opened and my eyes widen as I'm shocked to see. . .

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