Demon's First Kiss || Choi Soobin

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The night passed gone in a blink of an eye, replaced by the sunlight peering in through the green curtain inside the hospital's room. A hand stretched it open with a pale look and indisposed manner.

It was the third consecutive morning inside y/n's hospital room. And until now, she's still in a deep sleep. No one will ever know when will she ever wake up.

Soobin never left her side, wanting to be there for her through thick and thin. But he knows that day by day, as he looks at y/n depending her life with the machines stick on her body, it was the time he knew that he's slowly dying inside too.

"y/n... wake up now" Soobin said in a pleading tone, sitting on the chair beside y/n's bed and holding her right hand.

When we all think about Yeonjun, he suddenly disappeared after that day he let go of the girl he likes and finally accepted his own lost. No one knows where he is now, but that's good for the better.

"You're sleeping in three consecutive days.... aren't you hungry?" Soobin asked innocently, looking sincerely at her peaceful face.

When Soobin again, felt his left chest aching, he held onto it and squeezed it in pain. Holding and resisting the pain stinging somewhere in his left chest.

"I-i think..... this is the time where I need to leave" Soobin breathlessly mumbled, not paying attention to the pain.

"I'll comeback.... in the meantime, always be careful." he stroke y/n's hair as a tear came falling down his eyes while a smile flashed on his face.

For him, it's better to leave until y/n is still sleeping. Because in that case, he won't have the hardest time to leave.

"Thank you for stealing my first kiss" Soobin scoffed, a small laugh of pain came out from his lips.

He carefully let go of y/n's hand, as he heave a deep sigh before completely letting it go. It's hard for him ofcourse, leaving that someone you got used to is a big pain on every part of our body especially our heart. But not everyone who leaves, is meant to leave forever.

Soobin stood up, and turned his back. But to his surprise, a weak pale hand stopped him.

"W-where....." a familiar voice he heard, but it was very weak.

"Are you g-going?" y/n trailed, forcing herself to open her eyes just to look at Soobin.

Soobin stopped when he faced her, and see her all awake and speaking.

But it will never change the fact that she's still weak and feeble, he can see it through her eyes that are now forcedly opening, through her voice that can barely be heard, through her breathing that is obviously having the hard time to breathe.

"y/n---"

"i-i'm asking you! W-where are you going?!" y/n half-yelled. Soobin can tell that she wants to yell it out loud, and she's real angry right now. But because she's bed-sick, she couldn't say it out loud and couldn't even look angry.

Soobin's body froze when he saw beads of tear drops streaming down y/n's face as her lower lip is nearly trembling. 

"D-don't leave... please" Soobin's trying to hold back his tears now that he's seeing how y/n begged infront of him.

It was her words and the way she said them that made Soobin have the hardest time to think whether to leave or not. She kept crying and begging, that put Soobin off kilter and pushed him into the edge of pain.

"I-i have to." Soobin says, as he looked down and tried to avoid watching y/n cry because of him.

Soobin couldn't take it no longer, he slightly pushed y/n's hand away from his hand, making her let go of it unwillingly.

Until he started walking away from her, not wanting to take a glance back even if y/n is calling his name for the nth time using her weak voice.

"Soobin" her voice cracked, her voice nearly shaking, her voice sounded so weak. As she tried to stand up to stop Soobin, but her body was too weak, she can't barely move.

Soobin stopped walking and didn't moved any further when he heard y/n calling his name. As he looked back on y/n, with his teary eyes.

"If I tell you to stay!!!! Will you stay?" She shouted weakly, in between her sobs.

Soobin didn't answered her, thus he even avoided her question and avoided looking at her as if he doesn't want to see her crying and begging just for him to stay.

Then she saw him turning his back on her, and facing the door. She found herself in so much tears, that those tears are nearly blocking her sight when Soobin suddenly walked away from her and walking out of her room. Completely walked away from this exact position she was laying on.

Soobin always follow what I say, he always do what I told him to do so...

But this time.... he didn't.

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