Demon's First Kiss || Choi Soobin

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The moon matches the color of the dim light inside Soobin's room, mellow and radiant. Matching with the cold breeze that brought by the night's wind.

The awkward atmosphere gets thinner, as these both y/n and Soobin are now looking at each others' eyes. Only the sound of night crickets can be heard.

y/n felt suffocating with the unbeatable silent between them, so she decided to cut the silence by asking,

"You.... like me?" y/n asked, mixed of puzzled and shocked

Soobin was still looking straight in her eyes, usually a person can tell whether someone is lying or not. But y/n couldn't determine whether those eyes says only the truth or just making her hopes up high.

"Did I said that out loud?" Soobin asked, which made y/n even more confused.

"Fvck." He abruptly cursed mumbling, his cheeks started heating up in shame.

But the thing she got real confused is when Soobin suddenly stood up, making her move out of his way. Then Soobin ran outside his room, as if he's not even bed-sick a moment ago.

She even heard Soobin cursing himself outside while running as furious as he can.

And y/n couldn't help but to smile crazily, but she still doesn't know why she's all happy hearing those words from Soobin.

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The whole dinner thing was so poisonously awkward, Soobin didn't mention anything about him liking y/n. But she always catch him looking at her, biting his lower lip, resisting the urge to bring up the topic.

y/n starts to think that what he said was only a false hope. And that he only said that because he was only teasing her. But if ever that was only a joke, y/n will surely be in pain after her hopes escalated from 0 to 100, to 100 to 0.

Soobin seemed to be avoiding y/n the whole night, when he finished eating, he quickly wrapped things up and went directly upstairs to his room, without even saying 'goodnight' not like what he always do everynight.

"Soobin pfft" she mumbled while shaking her head, thinking of Soobin again while Yeonjun was just beside her.

Her mom told Beomgyu to accompany Yeonjun all the way outside the village, but Beomgyu being the stubborn lazy eldest child, he transfer the work to y/n herself.

Yeonjun shifted his eyes down to her, as he heard y/n mentioning Soobin's name all over again.

"y/n" he called her.

"Hmm?"

"Can you stop calling Soobin's name just for a minute? Especially when you're with me?" Yeonjun asked, tilting his head to the right in able for him to look at y/n's side more clearly.

y/n forced her lips to form a thin line, as if she was zipping her mouth to shut herself up.

"O-okay" she agreed awkwardly while nodding.

She saw Yeonjun smiled at her then looked at his way again after that. And that made y/n kinda felt relieve. So she looked at her own way too and started walking silently.

But on their mid way out of the village, Yeonjun suddenly stopped walking, that made y/n stopped as well when she noticed that Yeonjun wasn't following her anymore.

"Yeonjun! Why'd you stopped?" She asked with a smile crept on her face, running towards Yeonjun.

"It's funny how I still thinks you still like me until now" he muttered, with a very weak tone, it can barely be heard with meters away from the speaker. Good thing, y/n moved close to Yeonjun, to the point she heard what he said.

What Yeonjun said made y/n's mind stopped processing, she blinked a few times, even pinching her left arm to know if this is all real or not. Or maybe she's just too lethargic right now that she might have heard things coming from Yeonjun.

But y/n was so sure, that what she heard was an infallible words coming from Yeonjun himself.

"W-what?"

"You always search for Soobin... you always think about Soobin whenever you're with me. I feel like I'm just a greedy pet here, longing for your attention, and rooting that one day you'll like me again just like how much you liked me before."

"y/n.... I like you" those last words Yeonjun admitted, made y/n diverted her eyes up to Yeonjun.

y/n's body froze, her heart skipped a beat hearing those from Yeonjun.

It was the exact same words she had been waiting for Yeonjun to say ever since she had a crush on him since high school.

tell him you like him too! Y/n's conscience forced the body to speak, but the heart says,

"I-i'm sorry"

Either y/n couldn't understand herself. This is the moment she had been waiting for, but instead of accepting Yeonjun's confession, she chose to reject him.

Yeonjun seemed to be shocked because of what y/n said. He had this slight hope that y/n might tell him that she likes him too, but ended up hearing a rejection from her.

"I-it's fine" Yeonjun forced a smile, as his eyes became all teary.

"I-i guess.... this time, my brother wins" Yeonjun murmured, y/n didn't heard it right, since it was too weak for her to hear.

"y/n, be safe.... I-i have to go now...."  because I think I'm about to cry any moment now, and I don't want you to see me like this.

Our heart says painful things, that our mouth can't say out loud.

y/n's hands are trembling, while her tears crossing down her cheeks nonstop.

She watched Yeonjun turned his back and walked away from her. With a heavy heart he's carrying, and a painful outcome of his confession.

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