My Only Insanity *Shoey Fan fiction*

Chapter 10: What happens, happens.

{Joeys Pov}

I rushed into our room as soon as I could get loaded into my chair, pushing my own wheels. I arrived to the room out of breath, to see Shane's face deep in his pillow.

I rolled my wheelchair by his bedside.

Joey: Hey, Shane?

He didn't look up from his pillow, and his body seemed pretty relaxed. I assumed he was asleep.

Joey: I just wanted to say sorry.

I watched his peaceful chest fall up and down.

Joey: I'm really sorry. I know we were never serious, but I don't know what came over me. I feel so guilty. I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have kissed him. But I didn't feel anything. I love you. I'm so stupid, and I screwed up. But you'll always be as beautiful as the first time I laid my eyes on you.

I sighed as I watched him sleep peacefully. I rolled my wheelchair into my bed, and stood up just long enough to fall onto it. I pulled myself up and sat up, and took off all my clothes except my boxers.

My body is so ugly. I hate it. I wish I could just scrub off my body.

I laid on my bed and stared up at the plain white ceilings.

I felt someone wrapped around me.

Luke: You looked lonely...

Joey: How'd you get here?

Luke: Don't worry about that. Just kiss me.

He put his lips up, but I pushed him down with my hand, and shook my head.

Joey: No, no. I love Shane. This cant
Continue.

Luke: But I love you.

Luke crawled on top of me, and placed his hands on my hips.

Joey: Get off of me!

Luke: No! You'll have to love me!

Joey: Stop!

He pulled down my boxers quickly, leaving me naked.

Joey: Get off of me!!

I screamed, trying to push him away, but failing. My arms cant even pull me up.

Luke wrapped his hand around 'me'.

Joey: Shane help!

Shane was no where to be seen.

Joey: Shane...

I started to cry out, but he was no where, I gripped the white sheets tightly and tried to kick Luke off of me.

???: Joey!

I heard a voice call.

Joey: Shane please help me!

I said, tears rushing down my face.

???: Joey, wake up!

???: Wake up!

???: WAKE UP!

I snapped up, sitting straight up. Shane had black running down his face.

Joey: W-what?

Shane: You were screaming and shit. Keep my name out of your dreams, please.

Joey: Please, Shane. Stay.

I said and grabbed his write arm. He hissed and pulled it back and grabbed it in his own hand gently.

Shane: Watch where you fucking grab!

Shane cursed at me.

I wiped my eyes.

Joey: When did you become... So cold?

Shane: That's the thing about depression. I don't give two shits about myself, about society, and especially about you. So leave me the fuck alone.

I was running out of ways to keep him to stay. He needs to stay. I need him.

Joey: That's okay.

I said sniffling.

Joey: Luke was a better kisser anyways.

Shanes head snapped back at me and then he changed his mind, and just shrugged.

Shane: I don't care.

I bit my lip.

Joey: Yeah, and his tongue...

Shane jumped on my bed, getting on top of me and pinning me down.

Shane: I don't care! Okay! I don't care that you guys French kissed even though we were dating and we haven't even done that! I don't care that you've all of the sudden became this little slut as soon as we started dating! I won't care and I won't love you!

I smirked as Shane pinned my boney shoulders to the bed, but it didn't hurt.

Joey: That's the thing, Shaney. You already do.

I made sure to let the next words slide greasily off my lips.

Joey: You're already jealous.

Shane: No...

Shane said reluctantly.

Joey: Yes...

I purred back and wrapped my legs around his waist.

Shane lowered his face to my ear.

Shane: You're such a slut. You know that right?

He whispered hotly into my ears as his lips made its way to my neck and began to suck around until he found a nice spot.

Joey: Yeah...

I moaned out loudly.

Shane: I shouldn't want you so badly right now, you're too bad for me.

Shane came up to my lips and pecked them.

Joey: I'm sorry Shaney, I probably am too bad for you.

I bucked my hips into him, making him moan. He's delicious.

Shane: Punk.

Joey: Tease.

He grabbed a fistful of my hair and kissed me roughly, while sliding his hand down my pants.