CHEERS FOR BREAKS

KABANATA 12

SORRY

Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog pala ako sa sasakyan ko. Pagtingin ko ng oras ay ala 1 una nang hapon. My phone is drained so I just charge it a bit in my car when I open it there was so many missed calls and texts coming from the boys, Diana and my boyfriend. Wala akong sineen kahit isa at inoff ko ulit yung phone ko.

I am aware now on what I did last night. Tatanggapin ko lahat nang pwedeng maging punishment or kung ano man feeling ko pagod na pagod ako. Pumunta ako sa hospital para sana icheck si Diana pero pagkarating ko roon ay sinabi nang nurse na dinischarge na daw kaninang umaga pa.

Tumango na lang ako at pupunta na ako ng condo. Alam kung natutulog pa yun si Diana ngayon ichecheck ko lang siya kung maayos nang dumating ako sa condo tahimik ito kaya dumiretso na ako papuntang kwarto ni Diana. She was sleeping peacefully, I just kissed her forehead and whisper my apology even she's not aware of it.

After that I leave the condo. I will stay at my place for a while now I need some time to think about things. I texted my boyfriend that he dont need to worry anymore that I am fine, I'm gonna take rest muna. I turn off my phone and drive to Pangasinan.

I have my house here its been my resting place since it was built 2 years ago. I want to say sorry to Diana because I didn't keep my promise that I wont do anything to that party. Pero kasi nahihiya ako sa bestfriend ko, this was this feeling that maybe I should distance myself first from her. Hindi ako sanay na hindi ko nagagawa ang ipinangako ko kaya ganito na lang ang nararamdaman ko.

I miss my bestfriend so much. I still didn't open my phone since I arrive her. But yesterday Seb came here. Everyone know this place but only Seb come here because its quite.

After 1 week of not coming home nakapagdecide na ako na uuwi na ako and para na rin mag sorry. I called Axcyl few days ago through telephone naiintindihan niya din naman and mag uusap daw at babawi na lang kami after I come home.

When I arrive at the condo it was almost 11 in the evening. It was quite and I badly want to see my bestfriend waiting for me at the couch and hug me. Its my fault for not controling my anger pero hindi ko masisi sarili ko kung bakit ko ginawa iyon.

Ang ayaw ko lang naman na may magsabi ng masama sa mga kaibigan ko ayos lang na ako ang masaktan o manakit. I will do everything just to prove that my friends are good.

I silently go to Diana's room to see if she was there but she wasn't. Her bed is primly fold clearly she dont sleep in her room. Pumasok ako sa loob bubungad sayo ang mga picture namin. I smile knowing we love each other very much. Tanggap kami ng pamilya ng isa't isa. Umupo ako sa kanyang kama at humiga na I was staring at the ceiling until I fall asleep.

Nagising ako dahil sa tama ng araw sa aking mukha. Ayoko pa sanang dumilat pero hindi ko na kaya. Pag bukas pa lang ng aking mata bumungad na saakin ang mga kaibigan ko. The five boys are holding a letter balloons. S O R R Y is the word katabi nila si Diana. She was holding a cake, and I can see her eyes flowing with tears. Seeing her cry makes my heart hurt walang pagdadalawang isip ko siyang tinakbo at yumakap.

" I'm so sorry Xi I don-" I cut her off because she dont need to say sorry cause I am the one who's in fault. She's crying.

" No, you dont need to say sorry wala kang kasalanan okay. Ako yun, I'm so sorry kung hindi ako nagpaliwanag kung bigla na lang akong umalis. Sorryyy, sorry for making you cry I really do" habang ibinibitaw ko ang mga salitang iyon ay humahagulhol na ako.

" Sorry for being weak, I love you Xi, stop crying na" we still hug each other and she was caressing my back to calm me down. The boys are staring at us with teary eyes. I really love them too at niyaya ko silang sumali sa yakap. Nag group hug kami, masayang masaya na bumalik na sa ayos ang lahat.

I blow the cake when Ivan slapped it in my face. I didn't expect that he will be the obe who will do it. Isinampal ko rin sakanya yung cake nang sabay sabay silang nagpunas ng cake sa akin. Sa asar ko dahil sa lagkit tinakbo ko yung unan sa bed ni Diana at ipinangpalo at bato ko sakanila. Kurt groan when I hit his face so hard ansama ng tingin niya sakin kaya tumakbo na lang ako ng bigla akong nahulog kay Sebastian na nasa likod yung apat dahilan oara sabay sabay kaming mahulog.

We all laughed from what happen and decided to end the game para makaligo na rin dahil malagkit na. Pumunta na ako sa kwarto ko para magshower si Diana sa kwarto niya yung boys dun sa dalawang cr palitan na lang. May mga damit din silang nakalagay rito kaya walang problema.

Tumagal ata ako sa cr dahil pagkalabas ko tapos na silang lahat at nasa kusina na kumakain ng isang cake. I wonder where they get that cake it looks tasty hehe. Nang lumabas ako may nakasabit sa leeg ko na maliit na towel para sa buhok ko hindi ako nagboblower eh, walang rason na iba basfa ayaw ko lang. Nakapangbahay lang ang suot ko pajama at isang loose shirt lang dahil wala naman kaming planong lumabas.

Makalipas ang ilang minuto kung pagkakaupo ay tumunog ang aming telepono ang unang nakasagot ay si Ate Lea yung tagalinis dito sa dorm tinawag ako dahil para saakin daw ang tawag. Nagpasalamat ako sakanya bago ito sinagot. My heart beats so fast hearing his voice again. I miss it and I can't wait to see him at para na rin bumawi sakanya. His voice and the words he said makes me more excited.

" Honey, I miss you, see you later, I love youu always"