CHEERS FOR BREAKS

KABANATA 26

LETTING GO

The only way to make yourself happy after the pain is acceptance. Gladly accept that he or she will just be a chapter in your life. Our life is a book, chapters, words, sentences is part lf it.

It was 11 o'clock and I was driving to go to Tita George mansion. She said that his son will sleep there kaya umalis na ako agad. As I was driving there were so many thoughts rhat coming into my mind. If the decision I make will be fine, or kung hindi ako magsisisi sa gagawin ko.

Sinabi ko kay tita na sa oras na pumunta si Axcyl sa bahay nila ay sabihan ako. I will make an end to this, hindi niya ako kilala or kahit anong hint saakin kaya maguguluhan siya kung makikita niya ako. Gusto kong sabihin lahat ng nararamdaman ko kahit hindi niya ako naririnig at naiintindihan.

Nang makarating na ako sa mansion ay si Tita na lang ang gising. Hinintay niya ako at walang ibang makakaalam nito, walang makakakita na pumunta akong muli rito. She ask me if Im okay and then hinatid na niya ako sa kwarto ni Axcyl . " I'll be waiting downstairs" at lumabas na. Mabagal akong naglalakad papunta sa kama, hindi gumagawa ng ingay at pinagmamasdan ang mukha ng lalaking mahal ko. Makita lang siya sakit parin ang aking nararamdaman. As I sat to the edge of the bed para kaming si Sleeping beauty na kailangan lang ng isang halik para mabuhay pero wala tayo sa isang fairytale. He was sleeping peacefully his face, nose, lips it reminds me of everything.

" Hi honey, you're back I'm so sorry kung hindi kita nadamayan noong oras na kailangan mo ako. I always love you narito ka man o wala you gave me everything that I need years ago. You make me the happiest woman" as I was talking my tears are now falling, my heart wants to explode and all I just want now is to cry. But I need to end this as soon as possible dahil baka hindi ko na makaya sa susunod.

" I was so happy that I see you once again, even if it means breaking my heart to see you with another woman and helding your wedding in the place where you promise me na kung sino ang unang dadalhin mo roon ay siyang pakakasalan mo. Years ago I was broken after what happened, I barely living but guess what there was two princess that come into my life who gave me strength. There eyes is like yours honey, my favorite view. Naalala ko parin ang kilig na aking nadarama noon habang tayo ay magkahawak ng kamay. Sa iyong mga tingin na sinasabing ako lang ang iyong mahal. I still remember the times we spend together every single moment "

" Sadly were not meant to be pinagtagpo lang tayo ng tadhana pero hindi talaga tayo nakatadhana. Halos mundo na ang gumawa ng paraan para hindi talaga tayo para sa isa't isa. Hindi ako nagsisisi na nakilala kita at minahal. Ikaw lagi ang sinisigaw ng puso ko pero kailangan na nating ibaon ang ating mga alaala kasi hindi naman tayo magtatapos ng masaya. Sana panaginip na lang ito para pwede akong gumising at mawala sa pangyayareng ito. You become my favorite person and my happy pill pero hanggang doon na lang iyon. "

"  I came here to end this my love, I already accepted that were not meant for each other. You dont belong to me and you're happy now with her even if I badly wanted to stay with you, to run away with you alam natin na hindi iyon magagawa. Loving can hurt but it can make you happy too and we did that part. Naging masaya tayo at nagkasakitan lang sa huli. Maybe our love will be buried along the photographs that I will keep. "

My heart lightens habang sinasabi ang mga salitang binibitawan  ko kahit na halos hindi na magkamayaw ang nga luha ko sa pagdaloy. I think it was a good choice I feel that I can be really happy soon. Everything will be put to the their right places and for me, us, for youu, you will have a beautiful ending.

" This will be the last that I will talk to you, we were going back for being strangers again. Strangers that have a happy and painful past, I wish for your happy ending, peaceful life and for your love. I wish that you will never be alone and you will always in serenity. " tumayo na ako at nag ayos na pinunasan ang aking mga mata at kinumutan ko na siya ng maayos. For the last time I look at his beautiful face and kiss his forehead. Whispering the words I want to give to myself and for him.

" Bibitaw na, tama na, dito na tayo magtatapos sana ay mahanap na natin ang mga tamang salita na ilalagay sa huling pahina nang ating kabanata."

Hello the next chapter will be the last and I want you to hear the music Everything by Michael Buble. It was beautiful and yun din yung ipaplay roon. Thanks!