CHEERS FOR BREAKS

KABANATA 25

TALK

Tita George didn't stop calling me noong nalaman niya na may anak ako. She even did a secret DNA test para malaman kung  akin at kay Axcyl nga ang bata. And the moment she knew gusto niya akong makita at ang mga bata. Hindi ako pumayag hanggat hindi ako nagkakaroon ng oras. Ayoko na iba ang sumama sa mga anak ko. Napag usapan na namin ni Tita na ipapakilala ko muna siyang kaibigan ni Mama.

Pumunta kami sa bahay nila their house was huge, a mansion exactly sinabi ko lang sa mga bata na may ipapakilala akong bagong lola nila kaya agad ko silang napapayag. The twins are spoiled with their lola, my mother exactly so I know that they want to know who's their new lola and wait to get spoiled too.
Pagkarating ko roon ay agad na namangha ang mga anak ko. " Mommy it looks like a castle" they said inilabas ko na sila at pumasok na sa loob pagkatapos kunin saakin ng isang butler ang susi ng aking kotse.

Nag eenjoy sila habang pumapasok, but they suddenly stop when they saw Tita George standing in the center waiting for them. " Mommy, she was the woman I saw but I dont remember it when" my daughter said and chuckles. " Greet your new lola" i said but when i look at them my kids is now hugging tita George. " I have so many toys to give to the both of you gusto niyo ba iyon?" " Can we take it?" Kyre asked. Tita George just smile at them but she was shock to for the words that my daughter said. " Were gonna take it, and then we will give them to the other kids in the street". She was lost for words but manage to ask. " Why do you wanna give them?" "Because we have toys pa po naman and mommy said yung gusto at kailangan lang daw po yung kunin namin and if we can share something to others we will gladly give it to them as long as we have mine." my daughter said. Ang daldal talaga ng mga anak ko, napangiti na lang si Tita at pinasamahan na sa mga yaya ang kaniyang mga apo.

" You raised the kids so well Xistine " she said but I didn't answer her back. Pumunta kami sa isa sa kanilang living room it was elegant makikita mong mayaman talaga sila. She ask me to sit and I did but I was meters away from her. The maid give us drinks and she leave at naiwan na kami na lang dalawa. Tahimik lang kami ng mga ilang minuto bago niya ito binasag. Sa pagpunta ko dito, naisip ko na ang gagawin ko, I want to clear things out and move on already.

" What are you gonna do?" napaangat ako ng tingin sa kaniyang tanong. " Pardon?" umayos siya ng upo at tumingin saakin. " Nakikita mo ng masaya yung anak ko diba? Please let him g-" I cut her off dahil alam ko na kung saan patutungo ang usapan na ito. " I won't do anything, kung ang ikinakatakot mo na sabihin ko sa anak mo ang totoo, hindi ko yun gagawin. Wag mo akong gawing mababa" diretso kung sabi.

Ayaw niya ng ipaaalala sa anak niya ang kaniyang nakaraan. She wants me to stop, anything, any way. And that is the thing I want to do, I saw Axcyl or Zach he was smiling happily to his fiance, the way he touch, the way he talks and the way he look at Sophia you can see the love. Who am I to stop such beautiful love story. Ang sakit sakit na gusto mong lumaban pero wala ka ng maipaglalaban. The things is even the person you love the most, can love someone, hindi mo siya hawak, hindi mo siya pag aari at kung magmahal man siya ng iba maaring hindi kayo ang para sa isa't isa.

" Maybe your thinking that I'm selfish now huh," lumingon ako sakanya at tinitignan siya ng mabuti. " Everyone can be selfish Ma'am, pero hindi sa lahat ng oras maitatago mo." She look at me kaya dinagdagan ko ang aking sinabi. " You can't keep someone, you can't lock them forever with you. Darating at darating ang araw na pipilitin nilang makawala sayo sa oras na may gumulo sa isip nila at may mga lunipad na tanong sa kanilang isipan. It was okay to be selfish but choose wisely when you should do that " she's getting my point thats why her expression changed. Napagmasdan ko ang kaniyang mukha jer age is visible in her face but she was still beautiful. Naging tahimik muli sa pagitan namin at naalala kung may gusto pala akong itanong sa kaniya.

" Did Sophia know?" i ask. " Yes, we talk yesterday and I explain to her. Sophia is kind that if ever you chose that you want Axcyl back she won't fight kasi sayo na siya sa una palang"
She answered, Sophia is a tough woman para sabihin niya iyon but no, hindi na ako lalaban I already accept my defeat when I saw his gaze to her. It was full of love at ayoko ng guluhin pa ito. Maybe you would think why I do this, yung kung bakit parang ang dali lang bumitaw. Iisipin niyo na ang dami mo ng pinagdaanan, sakit at paghihirap dahil sa kaniya at ngayong bumalik na siya, dun ka na aalis.

May amnesia siya, wala siyang maalala tungkol saakin, I was just nobody to him. Sinasabi niyo na kung mahal nga ang isang tao kahit wala siyang maalala sa isip ay maalala ng puso pero how can he remember his love for me kung nakatuon na siya sa taong mahal niya ngayon. Don't ever judge someone in one thing, if its mistake or success don't ever do. Pinapalaya ko na siya dahil tinatanggap ko na may mga tao talaga na kahit mahal mo hindi mo makukuha.

" How can you explain to your daughters?" she ask me. " Don't mind my business" may sarili akong paraan at alam kung iintindihin yun ng mga anak ko sa tamang oras. Naging tahimik ulit sa pagitan namin ngunit napalitan ito ng ingay ng bumaba ang mga anak ko. They were so happy holding their toys pinaupo nila kami sa upuan at sinuotan ng tiara. Nagkatitigan kami ni Tita pero siya na ang umiwas ng tingin the way she look at my twin regret is evident in her eyes.

" Fix your things honey, were heading home mommy has work pa" I said that make them sad pero binawi ko agad ito. " Babalik tayo I promise" and smile mabilis na silang umalis sa harap namin at umalis na. " Come back here, I want to see my grandchildren roaming here in my house" pumiyok siya at alam kung iiyak na siya. I gave her my handkerchief " I will, hindi ko ipagdadamot sa inyo ang mga anak ko"

Bumaba na si Kyle at Kyre kasama ang mga yaya sa bahay na ito na madaming bitbit. I look at them at nagtaas ng kilay but they run. " Kuya Blue, let's go mommy will get mad" at tumakbo na sila. " You're strong Aria" she said I was shock at first because I heard her calling my second name. Pero nakabawi ako agad and I said something to her that makes her wonder.

" I need to be strong, thats what my names is." she was now standing beside me looking at my daughters too. " Can I ask you a favor?" I said sinabi ko lahat ng gagawin she agreed she know that I am a man of my word.

" Let me talk to him once again, I want to have an proper ending. "