No Where to go but up ( hawks x reader)

chapter 13

Y/n pov
day 13

I lay in bed breathing heavy from all the throwing up I've done.
Keigo hasn't been able to be around as much. I guess he was trying to find out where some villains where hiding.
I've gotton so much worse. I can't keep anything down. And my back is so infected and swollen I cant move without bleeding or it hurting.

I'm not allowed to leave the room. and if some one comes to see me they have to wear a mask so the infection cant get to other people.

I am halfway done with my book now. It seemed that everything is going good for the main character. She even found her sister.

I'm not allowed to be on my back so I was always on my sides or stomach.
I was always tired and sleeping most of the time. A reason could be all the pain meds they had me on.

All I can do is hope everything gets better. I cant loose hope.

" miss l/n i have some bad news." The doctor said. I diddnt even know he came in. I was laying on my stomach face away from the door.

" what is it now?" I diddnt even bother to look at him. All I've gotton the pass week is bad news. I am used to it by now.

" we are moving you to the ICU so we can watch over you at all times."

Great what next?

" anything else?" I snap.

" no, but I am truly sorry to inform you that you may not make it."

My heart dropped and I could my eyes swell with tears.

" a..are you serious? How long?" Asked my voice cracking.

" a month maximum, unless we can get the infection stopped. All our staff are trying our hardest I'm sorry. Would you like me to notify anyone?"

I've come so far this can't be happening . I can't let this happen. But I'm so tired of fighting. I'm exhausted.

" n..no, just p..please leave me alone." I sighed.

" I'm sorry miss l/n." He said and I heard the door close.

I started crying uncontrollably. My life was coming to a end and I couldn't do anything to stop it.

What about Keigo. I can't tell him, I'd just worry him more. I need to fight but at this point I want my suffering to end. I can't help it anymore.i dont know what to do. I cant leave Keigo, but it's getting so hard.

I sniffled my crying coming to a end. I was so tired. I jumped up grabbing the trash and throwing up. It's like it wouldn't stop. I swear I was throwing up my guts. I had nothing left in my stomach.

Day 15

I layed in the ICU stairing at the ceiling. Keigo hasn't came to see me yet. I still dont know how to tell him. I diddnt want to. I guess from what the nurses said I already look dead.
I diddnt care anymore. I'm just waiting for it to end. I still dont know what to do about Keigo anymore. I cant hurt him anymore. I had a tent around my bed. The infection had gotton worse faster then expected.
I dont know how much longer I have left. Everything hurt. My body has already given up, and my spirit is going with it.

Day 16

I layed facing away from the door. I then heard it open.

" hey kitten, I'm sorry I've been busy." Keigo sighed walking in and around the bed to see me. As soon as he saw me his face dropped. I diddnt say anything I just looked at him.