Only You

Chapter 14

"What did you just say?" A Man's voice behind us spoke.

I stopped.

I froze.

I know that voice. I know who owns it. I can recognize it.

Clarice look at me. I can say that her eyes is wanting to speak with me. It's full of thoughts but I couldn't read one. Our head slowly turn to that man's direction.

And I'm not wrong...

It's him.

"R-Ricci," nauutal ko na ani. Pangalan niya lang ang nasabi ko nung oras na makita ko ang mukha niya. I could tell from the look of his face that he is angry and... disappointed.

Hindi ba namang hindi diba? Mali talaga ako.

I screwed up.

Mali ba na sinabi ko 'yun? Iniisip ko lang naman yung relasyon niya sa girlfriend niya. Ayoko na masira sila ng dahil lang sa akin. Ayoko na pag-dudahan siya ng girlfriend niya just because he was going around with me.

I don't want that to happen.

"Oh, please... tell it's not. Tell me that I did not hear it right. Please, I'm begging you," he said. I immediately look away. I couldn't stand it. Hindi ko kaya na tignan siya sa mata. Hindi ko alam, naguguluhan ako. It somehow... it pains me.

Gusto kong sabihin na mali yung pag kaka-rinig niya. That he assumed the wrong thought. But I... I couldn't. I'm doing this for him, to save his relationship with his girl.

Agad kong pinunasan ang luhang pumatak mula sa mga mata ko. Ayokong makita niya akong ganito, na umiiyak. I want to think straight so I wouldn't commit mistakes. Gusto ko na makaisip ng tama. Ng tamang galaw, tamang sasabihin, yung tama lahat.

I don't want to lose him.

But how? Now that he belongs to someone else.

Lumingon ako sa kanya. Unti-unting tumitig sa mga mata niyang pilit nag tatanong at nag hahanap ng kasagutan. Nagugulan sa pangyayaring hindi inaasahan. Wala ni isang nag salita, tila'y walang may kaya.

"You heard it right," I said strong. But I didn't how strong, strong to make him cry. A tear escaped from his eyes. My heart beats so fast the moment it fell from the ground. It's my first time... to see him cry.

And I didn't think that it was a good thought.

He gasped and stares at me for a second. I think he is analyzing how crazy I am. But I think I am. Crazy thinking about him and his actions. The way he shows it to me and the way he makes me feel... special. I can admit. It was something that I didn't want to lose.

So he is making me crazy.

He laughed a little. "You're... you're unbelievable," he said and started walking away from my sight. The slowly his feets walk away from me, the slowly my heart fell. Thinking how things would be if he didn't heard it.

Agad din akong tumayo para sundan siya. Oo, wala na akong karapatan at ang kapal na ng mukha ko sa mga oras na 'to... pero ayoko. Ayoko siyang mawala.

Kahit hanggang kaibigan na lang, tatanggapin ko.

Sino ba naman ako diba?

Mabilis ko siyang hinabol pero hindi ko pa rin siya maabutan. Pilit siyang hinahanap ng paningin ko hanggang sa nakita ko siya. Nag mamadaling pumasok sa kotse niya. Ngunit nagulat at napahinto ako ng bigla niya itong sinipa. At kasabay nito ang pag sigaw niya, pag sigaw na labas kong ikinatakot.

"Ricci," ani ko pag karating ko sa likuran niya.

Please, huwag kang humarap... hindi ko kaya.