stupid shit you don't want to read

Egh

I can't stand myself sometimes. There are all these things and thoughts that I want to just shout but it's so hard to put them into words. Why is it so hard to put them into words. I'm tearing up as I write this. Not tearing as in tearing paper but tearing as in my eyes are forming salty water droplets. That was always so confusing to me. Why would you make two different words with different meanings have the same spelling?

All of this sadness and confusion and frustration. It's like I have a thought that I try to write out and then another thought just pops up and then it's just a mess because I can't get the original thought out and I'm trying to while the other one is still pushing itself out and it's as if they're all shoving each other in a disorderly line and I end up with a bunch of mumbo jumbo that not even I understand.

But it's fine. It's all fine. It always is and always will be fine and I'm crying over spilled milk is all. Don't worry about me. God why do they worry about me. It's pointless. For someone who isn't necessarily religious I sure use the words God and Jesus a lot.

What's your least favorite color?