I want someone I can lay in the dark with
Someone to talk to until three am
Someone to share a comfortable silence with
Questions
Plans
PromisesI have someone I want to lay in the dark with
Someone who I talk to until three am
Someone who I share comfortable silences with
Rhetorical questions
Future plans
Forgotten promisesI had someone who doesn't like the dark
Someone who fell asleep during our one sided conversations at three am
Someone who makes me feel nervous in the silence we share
Unanswered questions
Impossible plans
Broken promisesI wanted someone I could lay in the dark with
It's not their fault I'm scared of the coat on my doorknob
I wanted someone to talk to until three am
It's not their fault I get lonely when I can't sleep
I wanted someone to share a comfortable silence with
It's not their fault I'm awkward and need constant reassurance that I'm not
Silent answers
Clear plans
Different promisesI was selfish
I was inconsiderate
I was uncomfortable in my own skin
No questions to be answered
No one to make plans with
No promises worth keepingI still am these things, dear reader
To say that I'm only these things would be too generous
I'm still fawning over someone who doesn't give a damn about my fears or aches or pains
They're not a bad person
I'm just not a good one
Oh well.
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