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Irritated

This girl told me she just wants a romantic relationship so someone can hold her hand. We then joked about how motherly love is different from romantic love and how my dad's girlfriend is more motherly than my own mother. But who is she to talk. Every mother is different. Every mother has her limits. She has 5 kids for Christ's sake. She is allowed to be unmotherly sometimes. Even I go insane taking care of them. Besides. Everyone's idea of a mother is different. Because every mother is different. It's just a joke anyway. I say mother too much.

I've been thinking a lot about what she said. And yeah. I kinda want that too. A romantic love where I lay on the roof late at night holding someone else's hand. We talk freely about our worries and problems and dreams and aspirations. And when there is no more to talk about for the night, we share a comfortable silence. I want to be loved. I want to be needed. Call me selfish. I know. But familial love just isn't the same as romantic love. Way to state the obvious.

Someone choosing you. Out of so many other more deserving people. They choose to stand by you and love and support you. Not because they feel responsible for you or you have to take care of them. God I feel awful writing this. I should. I do.