Im One Directions Body Guard? [A1DFanfic]

Miscarriage

[Harry)

Those four words burn into my mind.

She had a miscarriage.

"She's fine now, just recovering. You may go in to see her." She pauses. "Oh and she'll be able to leave tomorrow afternoon." The doctor adds and quickly leaves

I stare at the wall, not knowing what to say or yet even think.

We only had sex once.

A month ago, a voice whispers

"A month ago." I whisper to myself.

Zayns head snaps towards me. "You knocked up my cousin." Zayn says in disbelief. Not in anger but disbelief.

"I forgot to be safe." I whispered to myself. "But she never said anything either." I pause. "We both forgot."

"She's been dancing too." I mumble as all the things she's been doing come to mind.

"She had a miscarriage." I say but hearing those four words out loud make it all seem even more real.

"Harry," Zayn tries. "Come on. Lets go see Sendra."

I let Zayn drag me to Sendras room.

"I'm going to let you talk to her first" Zayn says.

I shake my head. "I can't go in there" I whisper to Zayn.

Zayn stares at me in shock.

"I want to, don't think I dont, but I can't face her right now. Tell her I love her and I'll be back later. I'm not leaving her, I just need to think about what happened" I whisper. "I can't be strong for her right now. Zayn go to her and be strong for me" I whisper slowly walking away.

"Harry!" Zayn screams. "Don't do this to her! She needs you more than ever!"

I spin around to face him. "Zayn! Do you really think I can go in there?" I pause. "When I'm the one who's causing her all that pain? I put her through that!" I scream holding back my tears

"Harry!" "Its not your fault!" he screams as I walk down the hallway or trying to walk away. "It was an accident. You know that!"

I face him one last time. The tears pouring down this time. "It doesn't matter! I just had a dream. Of us having a kid together. I was excited just at the thought of it. We were married and happy. Then reality happens and it turns out she had a miscarriage. She was pregnant with OUR baby without either of us knowing." The tears pour down faster and faster. "I want to be there and be the one to tell her its okay. That I still love her and that we'll have kids one day, and that obviously the baby happened at the wrong time. I want to just walk in there and kiss her and tell her everything's alright. But I'm not strong enough to. I can't walk in there and just pretend that this doesn't hurt me as well. I would love to have a daughter that would be mine. That we could raise together but it just so happens to be that we had a miscarriage." I wipe my tears. "Zayn, please just go in there and be strong for her. Just until I'm accepting the facts. Until I can be strong for her."

"Harry, she really needs you." Zayn cries. "This is not only affecting you, but me and her as well. Think of everyone else! They don't even know what's happening! How do you think they would feel?"

I watch a tear fall down Zayns face as he starts to beg.

"Zayn, please" I beg. "Be strong for her. Cause I can't." I pause. "Just let her know that I love her either way and not to worry, one day we can have a child together. Whenever she's ready." I mutter walking away.

"Just don't do anything stupid!" Zayn cries as he collapses on the hospital floor. "I'll be there for her! Cause obviously you can't be man enough for her!" Zayn yells.