To Love You Again | c.v

26

26 - NINA

"Thanks for dropping me off," Nina bashfully smiled. "I swear I'm going to get a car soon."

Joel waved her off, unlocking the car for her. "I don't mind. Please listen to Christopher, okay? He may be irresponsible sometimes but he's a good guy. Trust me."

"I'll take your word," Nina pursed her lips together but finding it ridiculous how sensitive she was being with the whole thing. She couldn't really explain why she was hurt when she barely knew Christopher and they'd only been on one date. There was something that Nina couldn't quite explain and she felt like it would make her look crazy if she admitted that there was something about Chris that told her he was apart of her.

Nina entered the Starbucks with her mind set that she wouldn't take anything to heart. She was conflicted on why she had gotten attached so quickly. Just thinking of her confession to herself made her mouth taste salty.  Christopher was just another guy she developed a crush for which Nina had a lot of. However, this crush developed so quickly that it actually scared her a little. Things felt weird, almost as if she had gone through this already. Not exactly the exact situation but more so the feeling. Most of the guys she actually got to meet and develop feelings for reciprocated the feelings back. They actually showed her that they had eyes for her only and that they actually wanted to be with her. Christopher showed that but messed it up in a instant and it actually hurt her.

It was noon and as expected, the infamous coffee place was busy. Nina wasn't that short so she was able to spot Christopher among the seated people. He was sitting alone with his phone in hand and a bouncing leg. His cheeks were a light shade of pink and his teeth seemed to be pulling at the insides of his cheeks. With a final sigh to herself as preparation, Nina made her way to the table he was comfortably sitting at.

"Hey, Christopher," Nina said with a small but genuine smile.

Christopher immediately looked away from his phone and stood up. "Nina... hola, hi– how are you? Sit please."

He was strangely nervous. Nina did expect him to be nervous but there was something about this type of nervousness that didn't sit right with her.

"You're not going to get anything?" He asked as he glanced behind her to the counter. "I'll buy."

"No, no-," Nina assured him, gesturing him to sit back down. "I'm good, I'm not really hungry anyway."

Christopher visibly gulped and nodded. He placed his phone face down but wouldn't stop staring at it. It was beginning to worry Nina because it didn't seem like nervousness anymore. He was worried.

"I don't know how to say this... I wasn't expecting– I hope maybe I get it right this time. Maybe it was all meant to happen– Nina, I... this is hard for me–"

"Christopher," Nina chuckled dryly at his jumble of a sentence. "Calm down. What happened isn't a big deal. We weren't dating so it's not like you were cheating."

"Yes, but I still owe you an explanation because I told you I liked you and was perusing you."

Nina shifted in her seat as her stomach dropped a little and making her feel uncomfortable. She didn't want to be sensitive again but what was that wording? Liked?

"I thought I wanted this." He said slowly this time but never meeting her eyes. "I had my mind set on you. We don't know each other for so long but I felt a connection. As if we already knew each other... as if we met in another universe. I was going crazy about it because I really wanted it."

It was becoming dreadful for Nina. This wasn't what she expected. If this was going to be an apology and a "I just want you," kind of speech then it wasn't going anywhere close to what Nina expected.

"Chrisotpher," Nina said one more time but with a new irritation in her now. "Get to the point, please."

Christopher nodded and gulped again. He checked his phone one last time before shoving it into his pocket and looking straight at her.

"I thought I wanted you but I think I was wrong."

"What?"

"I think I want someone else and I was just blinded by you."

An immense pain overtook Nina's chest but she tried to cover it up. She felt betrayed but she didn't understand why. Yes, she felt a connection but her feelings weren't that deep for him. Her head began to pound as she felt the literal rotation of the earth.

"I know you won't understand..." Christopher continued with a hoarse voice. "but maybe we actually weren't meant to be. Maybe that's why I got another chance to be happy but... not with you. I'm sorry, Nina. I'm sorry for doing this again."

Christopher abruptly stood up and rushed to leave the coffee place. Nina's hand quickly flew to her chest, gripping it tightly as the physical pain expanded. Her eyes shut tight and her face contorted in agony. Her whole body was pulsating and it was almost like she was leaving her body.

"Miss?" A man called out to her but Nina couldn't see his face. "Miss, miss– are you okay?"

Nina tried to speak but a soft cry from the pain she was feeling replaced her words. She gripped the table and attempted to stand up but her legs gave in, causing her to fall right to the ground.

Her sight began to go cloudy and all she could see was a boy who resembled Christopher. She saw him smiling at her, holding her hand and kissing her cheek. She saw him reach for her and kiss her hands. Ring. She saw a ring. She saw him in a suit. She got closer to him but why didn't she feel happy?

She began to hear yelling from the man and many other people surrounding her but little by little, Nina couldn't see anything anymore.

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so yeah, i kinda forgot about this book bc i was so focused on the other three.

but i'm back on track.

working and studying is ugly. it's all i do so i feel guilty when i'm not doing neither ha. i wish i had more time to do the things i liked.  I'm really missing high school right now.

i just want more time but i guess this is adulthood.

i know cnco released their album but i haven't heard it yet. don't know when i'll listen to it but i'm scared about un beso because i love aventura. frankly, i didn't know this album was going to be a cover album. i mean, i thought that the first three singles were gonna be covers but that the rest were gonna be their songs. guess not.

anyway

goodnight 💜