Towers | (Ashton Irwin) / #wattys2016

Chapter 1

Hey guys, here is my new fanfic, i hope you will like it!

This story is fictional and so are characters.

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ILY xx

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"I'm so bored, what should I do now, she left me, here, alone..." I'm so desperate. I'm even talking to myself. What else can I do? Well, let me start at the beginning, like introducing myself. I'm Ashton Irwin, I live in Australia. I'm 20 years old and I'm madly in love with this one girl. But I screw it up, she left me, I wasn't good enough for her... her name is Kendall Harrison, she is 20 too, from Texas, but she live here now, with me, this was the best day of my life, when she said, that she is willing to move in with me, I mean she did live here... before she left me.

She is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, even though she doesn't think she is beautiful at all, she is so talented, she is actually famous and she picked me to be her boyfriend, just some random guy from Australia with boring life. She, on the other hand, is a worldwide known singer and she is really good at acting too, but her one and only wish is, that some day, her book will be publish and maybe they will make a movie out of it. She writes a lot, I just love watching her sitting in our couch and typing something on her laptop. Lately she's been through a lot of hate and I don't know how anyone could hate her, I mean she is perfect, she is kind, smart, funny and she always cares more about the others, than herself. She wasn't the same before she left, the hate got to her and I tried to be there for her, but she didn't listen and that's why I'm here alone and she is, I don't even know where. She made me a better person, I know that sounds surreal for 20 year old guy, but I really did fall in love with her...

I'm walking through our apartment and just thinking about Kendall, when out of nowhere her laptop catches my eye. She left everything here, she just went, without a warning or a goodbye. I guess I messed up.. big times. I open her computer and turn it on. On her background she has a picture of us, we were on the beach and we were both so happy back then, those were the days man, those were the days. I look through her screen and I see a lot of folders. In all of them was a Word document or as I like to call it: "her books", she has quite an imagination, so that explains it. One folder specifically cathes my eye, I don't recognize the title of it, which seems weird to me, she would usually tell me all the titles of her books, but this one..., I never heard of it before. My curiosity takes over, so I click on a folder named Towers. It seems like it is a book or something she wrote, I don't know, but there are a lot of pages. Well I've got nothing better to do, so I'm gonna read this, I always love reading her stories...

TOWERS
** December 12, 2013

 Hey there, I'm Kendall Harris, I live in Dallas, Texas. I'm 17 years old and I have quite a lot of time so I will write about my life, my struggles, my worries, well about my life in general. **

So is this her diary or something? She was 17 years old when she wrote this, she didn't even know me back then. She stepped in my life on my 19th birthday and ever since then, I mean now, she didn't left... I will defenitly read this, maybe it will keep me calm, maybe I will feel like she is here, with me, maybe, I will fell like I'm not alone, maybe I'll smile while reading, I hope it will make me feel better, because for the past several days I only wanna be alone, listen to sad songs and watch sad movies... so lame for a man, but what the heck, right?

** So as you know, well you don't know it yet but I'm going to tell you now, I don't have any friends, I was homeschooled, because people in school used to bullied me, a lot, like a lot. I'm an only child, me and my mom aren't so close, so basically I don't have nobody. Oh and my dad left when I was just a baby. I've never been into a party, but at your surprise I did have a boyfriend, he was my one and only friend and falling for him was one of the biggest mistakes I made so far in my life, but I will come to that later. So as a little kid I was chubby, so I guess that's why my classmates bullied me. They were saying awful things about me all the time, I don't know why, but they never left me in peace. So yes, I did have lunch alone in the bathroom and I cried a lot, but then, at some point, I couldn't take it anymore, I told my mum and she didn't really believed me, she told me that I was beautiful, but who can believe stuff like that, when all the other people are telling you that you are ugly and fat and you are not worth of living...yes they actually told me that. I was so desperate, that one evening, I was in the bathroom, just stared at myself in the mirror, trying to find anything on myself that I like, but I couldn't, nothing about me was beautiful or pretty or even okay. So that evening was the first time I took this little scissors that I found in the bathroom and cut my wrist. The worst part of it was that I liked it, I actually like it. I thought someone like me, human being, who don't have any right to be on this planet, who is a waste of space, has to be punished for living... yeah I thought that about myself for a long, long time. So eventually my mom found out and from that day on I was homeschooled. I forgot about the bullies, stop cutting myself and I actually felt better in my own skin, for once. I then I notice, that I like to write, when I'm writing, I just forget about everything. So I started to write lots and lots of stories, poems, even comic... I was 16 when I met Josh, so he was my best friend and then boyfriend. So we met at the shop, I dropped my wallet and he gave it back to me, then we somehow managed to change our numbers and we started to talk, every day. He was the first person beside my mum, who didn't bullied me and he liked me, for me. So we were in my room just watching some movie one evening...

"Kendall, you are something special and I don't know why can't you see that?" Josh said to me. That shocked me, because we were friends for over a year now, although I fell in love with him on week 2 or something, but I hid it. Well I'm pretty good at hiding my feelings from others, basically I'm good at hiding everything from the others, like my real thoughts, my goals, my beliefs and even my self harm scars.

"But friends can't say stuff like this about friends, or can they?" I was really confused, I didn't really know what did he thought of me back then.

"Look, I like you a lot, more then just friend, but I will understand if you don't like me the same way." He looked sad. This was the moment that I had my very first kiss and I have to say it wasn't bad at all. Since then we were inseparable. So know you now everything about my past, now, I will write every day, when something important happens, I won't write, if, like one day I will have a lazy day or a sick day, because I'm hoping, that I could show this to my kids some day and they will have fun reading this.
Okay so back to the point, today is mine and Josh's 11 month anniversary. Oh and if you are asking this, yes, we slept together and I lost my virginity to him, it was Wednesday and back then we were together for 4 months and 13 days, well what can I say, I'm pretty good at remembering dates and stuff. So today he said that he would take me somewhere nice, so right now I will hop under the shower and get ready for our date, I can't wait. K, bye xxx **

She sounded so excited, but I know how this Josh thing ended, I feel sorry for her, that she felt like this for him... and I didn't know that she was bullied so hard and that she wanted show this to her kids... I've decided to make something to eat and continue reading.