"I've paid enough of petty dues"
"I've had enough of shitty news"
"I've had a thing for dirty shoes since I was 10
"Love dirty men alike"
"You're too horny" I say taking a bite of pizza
"Um says you. Bet you be hopping on Easts dick anytime you're...
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"I'm trying my best"
S A V A N N A H:
"Morning baby" Dave hugs me closer "and baby" he kisses my stomach and I giggle
"I have an appointment with the doctor tomorrow . You coming?" I say yawning
"Of course ma" he kisses my cheek
Picking up my phone I decided to text Sam, asking if he wanted to hang out today.
To Sam😌: hey you wanna do something today?
Sam😌: can't.
I frown. Is he mad at me? Or is he actually busy?
"What's wrong ma?" Dave ask as he sees my change in mood
"Nothing Sams just being weird" I get off the bed "or maybe I'm just over reacting"
"Man fuck that nigga. Probably jealous he ain't the one you loving" he kisses his teeth
"You know me and Sam ain't like that" I don't know how much times I need to tell him Sam and I are just friends
"Yeah yeah, all the friend shit you be saying all the time. Why you ain't got no girl friends? Hanging around him makes it seem like he's your nigga" he puts his hands behind his head
I've tried to make girl friends many times but those friendships always ended horrible. Either they would talk about me behind my back or try to get with Sam.
I liked Sam being my best friend. It's been like that forever. He gives me a source of comfort no one has ever gave me, except now. Dave gives me a similar feeling.
And as crazy as it sounds I don't want to have another friend other than Sam. He's been my safe haven for the longest time.He has been with me through my bad and good days. He's a constant in my life that I never want to let go.
Maybe it's the same with Dave. Why I can't picture myself with anyone else but him. He gives me the love and attention I'm missing . He makes me feel at ease like how I feel with Sam.
And maybe it's my daddy issues seeping through but I'll cling onto whatever love someone gives me. It's one of my many toxic traits.
I just want to feel loved, even special. And Sam always gives me that. And on the good days Dave does too.
"I just get along with Sam the best" I shrug his question off walking into bathroom to do my morning routine
After I finish I go into the kitchen just making some cereal for myself and Dave takes a seat next to me
"You alright ma?" He says putting out some cereal for himself as well
