Living the Dream

Back For You

Hey guys! Thank you all for reading! I hope you like it :) Im not going too fast, am I?

*Krystal's p.o.v.*

"In one week"

Well that clearly wasn't what I expected. At least he wont be mad at me.

Sometimes I wonder what I really am doing. Are we even serious? Is this kind of a relationship even possible?

How could everything just be so perfect! First friends,then dates then just officially announce to be dating each other, promise to always love and care for the other, then go to parties as a couple,then share a bed. All this in just 21 days.As if this is some kind of sick joke.

What now? We both were leaving in a week and then what will happen to us?To our relationship? To our promises and commitment?

All our memories together flashed in my mind all at once and my head started paining.I felt dizzy.

"Hey, ya fine? I know its painful and all of a sudden but ,pain demands to be felt right? Please understand.There's nothing I can do. But you can come on tour with us if you wish to."

"Umm Im fine.I think I should leave.Can we talk about this later?" .Would it hurt Niall this much if I told him that I had to leave?

"Sure.Don't forget that we don't have much time though. Take care of yourself.You look tired."

" I will.Bye Niall"

"Krystal wait! The driver will be dropping you.We got a shoot now. Niall will call you later in the evening I suppose."

"Yeah.Where'd Niall go?".

"He seemed pretty upset .Give him some time okay? Go home and think about what you two wanna do"

I don't know wether to feel hurt, angry or confused.I just nodded and walked away from Lou.

Niall and I wouldn't be able to see each other anymore.We don't have much time.Am I really mad at him or at myself?

He followed me to the car and gave me a kiss on the cheek before turning away and leaving.

After reaching home I took a quick cold water shower while thinking about what happened these past few weeks.What happened yesterday, and what happened today.

Ive gotta move on from yesterdays incident.About todays incident..Am I really bad for Niall? Yes. From the time we got together nothing had gone right.We both still got in danger even though we were there for each other.

I didn't deserve him.I decided to think of all the pros and cons of us being together.

'He met with an accident after I met him'. But It wasn't my fault!.
'I cried because of him for days'. But it wasn't his fault.
'I was hospitalised for a day or two' That's because Im weak.A screwed up mess to be exact.

'I was misbehaved with.Twice.'
That, was clearly my fault. I should have stayed with him.
'The hate and unwanted attention'. But we have each others backs.
'He cant concentrate on his carrier because of me'. Thats cause he loves me.
'He hasn't introduced me to his parents'. Does he even want to? Im not good for him,why should he?
'What if this is not our forever?' It is.And as Niall says, promises are not made to be broken.
'whatever,I Love Him.'
And he loves me too.Thats all that matters.

Love. Thats definitely a foreign emotion to me. It feels so good but still so bad.It feels wrong but right at the same time.It feels....perfect.