“Hey, Mrs. Graceffa.” I greet Joey’s mom as I enter the kitchen.
“I told you, Shane, you can call me Debora.”
“I know but I just like saying Graceffa. It’s a cool name.” she laughs and shakes her head as she continues to make an early dinner. “Do you know where Joey is?”
“He said he wasn’t feeling good so he came home early. He’s on the roof. He usually goes there when he needs a breath of fresh air.”
“Thank you, Mrs. Graceffa.” I say as I walk out of the kitchen.
“Shane…” I just give her a cheeky smile and walk out of the kitchen and into the living room. I go upstairs and open Joey’s bedroom door to find it completely empty. I walk to his window and hop onto the miniature balcony. The metal railing gives me a boost as I grab onto the roof’s edge and pull myself on top.
I go to the highest peek in the roof and find Joey staring out at the world with his knees brought up to his chest. I sit down next to him and try to put my arm around him but his skin is icy cold.
“Are you okay, Jay?” I ask him. I can feel the cold air emitting off of him like dry ice. He turns his head to look at me as one tear slides down his face and lands on his trembling lip.
“Do you know what I think is really scary? It takes nine months for our lives to become reality but it only takes a few seconds for our lives to become a memory. It doesn’t take that much time for our memory to fade away.”
“Joey, your life is not a memory and it will never fade away.”
“You don’t know that.” He says with more tears flowing now. “I could jump off this roof right now and end it all. The end of all things.”
“Joey, don’t think like that. I love you and you can’t leave me.” I say as tears threaten to break the barrier of my eyes.
“My biggest fear is that you’ll see me the way that I see myself and you have. I hurt and kill people. I’m a monster just like you said. In the back of my mind, there was always this voice telling me that everyone hates me. I realized that the reason that I think everyone hates me is because I’m too afraid to admit that I hate myself. I can end it all. I can end it all right now.”
He stands up and runs to the edge, immediately jumping off the roof.
“JOEY! NO!”
This is a preview of chapter 16. I dunno when I'll post the real chapter. Maybe the next day. Maybe the next week. Whenever i finish it i guess.
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Out Of Our Control (High School Shoey)
FanfictionJoey is a psychotic teenager who uncontrollably murders people against his will. Shane Dawson is a teenager who brings people back to life using his "Super Luv" what will happen when they meet at Arleta High? Will they try to destroy each other or...
