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D: August 12, 2020 Phone Call

I got a phone call today with news no one should ever hear. On Thanksgiving many years ago, my parents got a phone call from me. I was in shock, but the words I spoke sounded something like "Help me. He hurt me." My life was changed forever.

What moment in your life made you who you are now? When you got your dream job? When you met your true love? When your dad died? When your spouse cheated on you? Whether that defining moment was happy or sad, it changed you, for better or worse.

Nothing else in my life can compare to that traumatic night, and I do compare every moment before or since with it. I wonder who I would be if I hadn't been assaulted at knife point. Would I be braver? Stronger? Happier? Just simply better?

If you've read some of my personal blog posts, you know that I write a letter to the parole board every year begging them to keep the monster who hurt me in jail. In March, I sent them my poem Shaken. But my pleas were in vain, because the prison board decided to release him on parole. He still has 15 years left on his sentence!!!

He assaulted me and at least three other women. I know he will hurt someone else if given the chance. That's why I testified again him, even though he threatened to kill me if I told.

I am more angry than scared. I should have learned how to shoot a gun or gotten a black belt. I feel helpless to protect myself, just like I was when he broke into my college apartment that night.

The phone call I got today was from The Victim's Advocate. He'll be a free man on August 18, 2020, but I'll never be free of the fear that he will hurt me or someone else again. How can they let him out of jail?