Kleptomania | Billie Eilish

Seven

Billie

I awake with a groan caused by light streaming through the curtains, making me not want to open my eyes. Mid yawn, I try to regain full consciousness. I can't recall yet where I am or who I'm with. I flip onto my back and stare at the ceiling.

My mind circles through my dream from the night before and how strange it was. There was a girl there, I kissed her- wait no; she kissed me. She had glittery makeup and hazel eyes. And her kiss felt so fucking real.

That's because it was fucking real. I suddenly sit up and see Maddie laying beside me. She's turned away from me, asleep. Maddie kissed me last night, a lot. And I liked it, even more, I think to myself. She was also really fucking drunk. Did it mean anything at all, then?

My thoughts immediately start to spiral. I was sober when Maddie kissed me and I still enjoyed it. But she seemed to enjoy it drunk and high. I even helped her change and get to bed. I guess I passed out and forgot to leave after she fell asleep.

Fuck me! I'm supposed to be with Xavier right now, I remember.

I take one last look at the back of Maddie's head before quietly leaving the bedroom. Having no idea what time it is, the house is silent so I'm assuming it's early. I creep down the hallway and find the room Xavier and I were supposed to share for the night. I enter and see Xavier sitting criss-cross on the bed looking down at his phone in his lap.

"Look who it is," he looks up at me, "ditched your best friend of 6 years for some chick you met like 2 weeks ago." He rolls his eyes at me then looks back down at his phone.

"Oh my god Xavier I have no fucking idea what happened," I crawl onto the bed, "you know that I would never purposely ditch you."

He shrugs, "I know, I'm just messing with you. But jeez, what happened?"

"Maddie was just super wasted and wanted me to stay with her until she fell asleep. Then I knocked out myself and didn't make it back here," I run my fingers through the ends of my hair in conversation. "She was just needy and needed some extra help. It doesn't seem like she knows her limits with alcohol."

"Yeah, no shit. Also! You two were totally like making out last night!" he exclaims clearly excited about what had happened.

"She kissed me and I kinda just went along with it."

"Well Maddie obviously has thought about kissing you while sober if she was so desperate to do so then," he points out.

"Maybe. Or maybe she was just really fucking drunk and it was in the moment thing."

"Did you like it?" he asks shyly.

"The kissing? I mean yeah, she's a good kisser for being crossed," I say casually.

"She's pretty like really damn pretty, maybe she likes you. Bil you can finally have the girlfriend you've been wanted for so long!" Xavier is clearly excited about Maddie and I'd shared kisses.

"Slowww down jesus! Maddie's good looking and who knows maybe I'll try but don't get your hopes up."

"I'm probably gonna pray to god that y'all get together. I'm gonna meditate tonight and get in tune with the universe so I can manifest your-"