The Bravest Soul

chapter thirteen

CHAPTER 13:

[Chapter Song: Lullaby by IU]

Day 36:

Its 5pm when I decided to get out of my room and take a walk, well I'm not really walking because I'm using my wheelchair now. My cancer is not getting any better this past few days, it is actually getting worse. My system are starting to eat me up and I have no idea when will this end.

My body is getting weaker and weaker as the day passes by. I can't even open the door for myself, thankfully my wheelchair is automatic and Nurse Sandra is always there to guide me.

Auntie visited me, 7 in the morning this day but she needs to do something so she came back at the office by 10am after helping me to grab my breakfast. That was the most heartbreaking breakfast I've ever had. I can still hear her cries and sobs, I can still see how broken she was.

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"I love you so much, Auntie." I said out of nowhere while she's helping me with my breakfast. My hands feel numb that's why I need help even on the simpliest thing I need to do.

"I love you too, Sweetie." She's trying to hide her tears but I can clearly see it.

"Take care of dad when I'm gone." I almost whisper, trying my best not to cry but who am I kidding.

She then cry harder, she put a side my food and immediately gave me a hug. "I'm sorry. Auntie is really sorry." Inalis ko ang pagkakayakap sa kanya at kinuha ang box na naglalaman ng regalo ko sa kanya.

"Find someone who will give you the love you deserve, I maybe no longer in this world when that happen but I will always be happy for you. Auntie, just cry once for me and after that promise me that you'll live normally. I'm so thankful that God gave me you, Auntie Kirsten, I will always remember the love you gave me. I love you to the fullest. You can now live with your dreams, Auntie." Lalo lamang bumuhos ang mga luha nya habang nakatingin sa box na ibinigay ko sa kanya. Hindi sya makatingin sa akin at panay lamang ang pag pupunas ng luha nya.

Napangiti na lamang ako at binigyan muli sya ng mainit at mahigpit na yakap.

"I am so lucky to be loved by you." Muli kong bulong sa kanya.

We hug each other for the entire time without breaking it. Kinantahan nya pa ako ng lullaby para makatulog ako, ngunit imbis na matulog ay nagpanggap na lamang ako. Alam ko kasing ginagawa nya ito dahil may kailangan sya ayusin at hindi nya kayang iwan ako ng gising dito ngayon.

Nang maramdaman ang pagalis nya ay iminulat ko ang mata ko. Doon muling bumuhos ang luhang pilit kong itinatago sa kanya. Kusang nagtuluan ang mga luha at lumabas ang mga hikbi, pakiramdam ko ay sasabog na ang puso ko sa sakit na nararamdaman ko. Alam ko na masasaktan ako sa pamamaalam, ngunit hindi ko alam na ganito pala kasakit.

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Pinahid ko ang luha sa pisngi bago muling lumabas sa aking kwarto.

Yzien never leave my side since that day, he was always helping me on the things I can't do. He was always the last person I see whenever I close my eyes and also the first person I see whenever I wake up.

I stopped my wheelchair when I hear his voice. I turned my head around to check if it is him. Napangiti naman ako ng makita syang tumatakbo papunta sakin.

"Abrille! Bakit ka lumabas ng kwarto mo? Wala ka pa man din kasama dito." Hinihingal nyang sabi ng makalapit sya sakin.

"Ayos lang naman ako dito, madami din naman nurse at doctor dyan kung sakaling may mangyari sakin." Tumango sya sakin at pumunta sa likod ko.