The Bravest Soul

epilogue:

THE BRAVEST SOUL:

[Final Chapter Song: A little braver by New Empire]

The raindrops are starting to hit the ground. I stare at the dark sky, its only 11am but the sky looks dark as if it keeps so much secrets. I smiled in a bit, funny how things can change so easily. When I leave our house at past 10 the sun is still sunny but now it was dark.

Luckily I have umbrella in my car. I park my car in the cementery's parking lot, I grab the ice cream I brought in one of the convenience store.

"Hi?" I awkwardly said when I saw her picture beside her tombstone. "I buy you your favorite ice cream. My sister and mother said it was your favorite when we were together." I hung my head down. "I'm sorry, I took to long to visit you. Wala akong balak na bisitahin ka kung hindi lang ipinaalala ni mama." I smiled bitterly.

"Pinaalala at pinarealize kung gaano ka talaga kahalaga." I put down the ice cream and opened it.

"I'm sorry, Abrille."

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"Anak kakain na, tara na." I turned my gaze at her, my mother. I immediately stood up and clung in her arms.

Its been a months since I get discharged from hospital. I spent a month doing nothing, I just stare at the wall or ceiling, I sometimes scroll at my phone and some pictures gave me a sudden sadness. Its weird but painful.

"Woah, napakasarap talaga mo magluto mama!" Puri ko sa kanya dahilan para mapangiti sya.

"Dahan dahan, baka mabulunan ka." Puna sa akin ng kambal ko, pero hindi ako naniniwala na kakambal ko sya. Hindi nga kami magkamukha e, sigurado na isa samin ay ampon.

"Mag madali kana lang dahil aagawan kita." Sagot ko sa kanya dahilan para mapairap sya.

Sabay sabay kaming napaharap sa may pinto ng marinig ang door bell dito.

"Delivery for Yzien Dale Venusio."

"Its me." Maikli kong tugon.

"Please sign here." Ginawa ko din naman ang ginawa nya. "Thank you."

I stared at the small box in my hand.

"Kanino galing?" Dalien asked.

"Wait. Aviengale Brille Zamora?" My brows furrowed but my heart suddenly feels heavy. "S-She's the one who died, Am I right?" They both nodded at me.

I went upstairs to open the box. How did she manage to gave me this if she died months ago?

I stared at it for a moment, this box filled with pictures. Picture of me and her, I guess. It was mostly a stolen picture of me with a notes in the back and date when it was taken. I stopped when I saw a printed picture, I guess its from a photobooth. It was a picture of me and her doing some crazy pose with some headbands.

Napahawak ako sa noo ko ng kusa akong makarinig ng boses.

"I'm pretty sure you'll miss me when I'm gone." Napahawak ako sa dibdib kong ng maramdaman ang pagkirot nito.

After looking at these pictures, I saw a folded paper.

'see the good'

Beautifully written using a brush. Binaliktad ko ito at nakita dito ang isang letter.

Dearest Yzien,

If you're reading this letter, I probably no longer with you. Wag kang magalala, I'm in the better place right now. Siguradong maganda ang pupuntahan ko, pero wala ng mas gaganda pa sa mundo kasama kayo. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako magpapaalam sayo o kakayanin ko ba? Paano ko ba sayo sasabihing paalam kung alam ko sa sarili ko na masasaktan lang kita. Pasensya kana ha? Alam kong pagod at sawa ka ng maiwan pero eto ako, nagpapaalam pa din sayo. I'm sorry Yzien, kung hindi sana kita kinulit na samahan ako hindi ka sana magiging malungkot ng ganito. Akala mo ba hindi ko naririnig ang iyak mo sa tuwing inaakala mong tulog ako? Rinig ko lahat ng yon. Sorry for being selfish but I'm not really sorry, you gave me a chance to feel that I'm alive, that I'm living. You gave me chance to do what I wanted to do, you gave me chance to be happy and I'm really is. Thank you so much yzien. You are one of the best person I've ever met, keep moving and going. I hope someday the universe let us meet again, and at that time we can finally be happy. Truly happy. Live well, Yzien Dale.