Pregnant!?! (The Last Of Us Fanfic)

House to house

Joel POV

It kills me to see Ellie in pain. Ever since we left Jackson, she's been this different person. I don't know if it had to do with the fact that she knew the truth or that she was changing. The house with the electric fence was our last stop, then we were heading home to Jackson.

Tommy knew we were only going to be gone for just a bit...I hope he hasn't sent people out to look for us. We're pretty far off the highways.

I can hear her walking down the hallway towards the room I'm in. I didn't want her to see me cry.

I wipe the tears from my eyes and toughen up as she gets closer to the door. I sit down on the bed to gather myself. As I sit down, a puff of dust floats up from the bed. These beds are very old. I try not to breathe it in because it would probably make me cough.

"Joel?" I hear Ellie almost whisper. She lightly knocks on the door. I almost don't want to let her come in but I can't say no to her, especially if something is wrong.

"Come in," I say, looking down at my feet.

The door slowly opens and Ellie is standing in the doorway. I can see her shadow pour into the room, she walks in slowly.

"Joel?" She asks as she walks over to me. She sits down by me, cautious. I look over to her and I can't stop the tears from coming out. Ellie looks very worriedly at me, she sits closer to me and puts her hand on my back, rubbing it. "Joel-"

"Ellie, I am so sorry," I cry out. My body heaves as I cry, I do not want her to see me like this. I really try not to show much emotion because it makes her worried and I can't have her worrying about me.

"Joel, it's okay. I'm okay, you're okay, and the baby is okay-"

"I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry about Salt Lake, about Jackson, about Finn- about everything. I couldn't stop bad things from happening and I couldn't protect you. We wouldn't be in this situation right now if it weren't for me," I push out. I sniff as my nose starts to drip from me crying. Ellie pulls me in closer to her as I let it all out.

"Joel, you already apologized for Salt Lake and Jackson...it's okay, really. Things happen and sometimes we can't control them-"

"The Fireflies wanted you and I took you from them. I controlled that and...I couldn't lose you," I cry out. Ellie nods,

"I know, Joel. We talked about this-"

"And you forgave me, without a second thought," I tell her.

"Well, it took me a couple months but what happened, happened. I can't control the past and neither can you. I had to move on and I couldn't do that without you," she says to me. My body shudders as I try to stop crying. It's pathetic that I'm like this.

"Ellie, I am so sorry," I tell her, tears streaming down my face.

"I know, Joel. I know," She says, a couple tears come down her cheeks.

She pulls my arm up and puts it around her. She moves in closer so she can hold onto me and rests her head on my shoulder. I pull her in, holding her and never wanting to let her go.

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Ellie POV

I couldn't sleep all night. Joel fell asleep on that disgusting mattress, he offered me the bed but I kept sneezing from the dust, so I told him I'd be okay finding something else. He fell asleep right after that because I could hear him mumbling. The nightmares haven't stopped since we escaped, I have them too and it's easier just not to sleep. I'm not sure how Joel can sleep but the exhaustion sets in after a while.