POETRY

SELFISH

SELFISH

Here are five reasons why you should leave

Even if you love me

(especially then).

1. I love you but don't touch me.

I'll probably say that a lot

But baby I need you to understand

That my mind's a twisted knot

And I despreatly need my space

-that doesn't mean I don't still want your embrace

It just means I need to recharge my lungs

Because they've been feeling a lot like a cage

And your three little words could just add on the weight.

2. There are days when I look in the mirror and don't recognize the person staring back.

Those times I don't know how to lift my arms

Properly, or how to move my legs

See, I just want to get to know this stranger that appeared on my doorstep.

(you shouldn't have to deal with that).

3. I've always had a thing for sharp objects.

Please don't walk away just yet –

I know you're scared

But let me explain myself.

Those times that I've cut myself there was never a dripping regret.

Instead there was a painful awarness of being alive,

Of my beating heart

Thats pumping blood.

Those times I've broken my bones

Was the most alive I've felt in a while.

And that's why you should smile.

You should smile because we're only ever feeling alive

Right before we have a chance to die.

When we're so high on adrealine

We can bearly contain the skeleton within.

4. My heart and this world don't fit eachother.

I mean, my mother

Always told me not to keep my head in the clouds

That I should probably stay safe on the ground

But I've never been good at taking advices

So my heart always ends up paying prices.

5. There are things I no longer wish to understand.

Like how my story ends

Or why could we never make amends.

I no longer wish to understand why would kids my age rather be dead

Or how did I not end up being one of them.

There are five reasons why you should leave

Before we even meet.

But I've always been a bit selfish thing.

(that'll make you sting).