It's Only 6 Years... (James Cassells Fanfiction)

Chapter 8- Hold On Till May

I was in the hotel room laying out my clothes. I was in desperate need of a shower, and i was intending on taking one before James came. He never told me what time he would be over, but I gave him a key so he could get in when he needed. 

I walked into the bathroom and shut the door. I didn't bother locking it though. I took off my shirt and began to stare at myself in the mirror. I could see the many cuts littering my arms. I knew that I would have to tell him. My arms weren't the only place though. My thighs were covered too. 

‘How could someone as good and as great as James like me? Or love me for that matter?’ 

I shook off my negative thoughts and began to strip off the rest of my clothing. 

I turned on the water and jumped in. It was cold at first, but began to turn warm. I let my head drift under the hot water. The way the water dripped down my face and body was somewhat relaxing. 

I was going to reach for the shampoo, but realized I had left it and the conditioner in my bag. I stepped out of the shower, and heard a small slam of a door. 

“Lexi, Im here..” I heard James call out seductively. 

“Shit…” I whisper yelled. I looked over to the towel rack, but there was nothing there. ‘I left the towel on my bed. Fuck!’ I thought to myself. I was starting to get cold.

“James?” I called out. I heard some shuffling outside the door. I could see the knob start to turn. 

“James don’t open the door!” I tried yelling at him through the door. By the time I was done yelling he had already opened the door. He was starring at me wide eyed. I did my best to cover myself up as I ran past him and towards the towel. I quickly picked it up and wrapped it around my waste. 

James was now looking at me with a slight smile and blush on his face. “U-Uhh… Sorry.” was all he could muster out. 

I looked at him, my face was beet red and hot. “What do you not understand about Don’t open the door?” I practically yelled at him.

“I-Im sorry, I didn't know you were…” He paused for a second looking me up and down. “Naked.”

With that I pulled my towel up just a little higher. “Yeah.. Well next time just dont come barging in…- What?” His eyes were wide again. He wasn't looking at my face anymore he was starring at my legs.

“Lexi… why?” He said as if he were about to cry. It was only then that I figured out what he was starring at. 

“James.. Im sorry, It- I was just in a bad time in my life and I didn't know where else to go, or turn to for that matter. It was a long time ago.” 

James maneuvered his way around the beds and towards me. He knocked himself into me, enveloping me into a hug. “Plea-” His voice cracked. “Please don’t ever do this to yourself ever again. Okay?” He had tears in his eyes and that just broke my heart. I pulled away looking to him. I had to take a couple breaths to try and keep the tears away.

“I promise.” He looked at me with a smile, whipping the tears from his eyes. He grabbed the side of my face and leant down placing a small kiss to my lips. 

He grabbed both of my hands leading me to the bed. I looked at him nervously.. I was still in a towel. “Let me go change real fast.” I said letting go of his hands. I grabbed my cloths and walked over to the bathroom. I dropped the towel to my feet and began to get dressed. I put on some baggy sweatpants that were way to big. 

I stole them from Ben about a week ago, and I don’t think he’s realized that there gone yet. I chuckle to myself as I clip on my bra and pull a Black Veil Brides sweatshirt over my head. 

I looked back at the running water and turned it off. ‘I’ll take a shower tomorrow before we head out.’ I thought to myself. I walked out with the towel on my head. 

James was lying down under the covers of the bed. He had the tv on and he was watching spongebob. ‘Of course.’ I thought and rolled my eyes. He finally noticed me watching him, and he smiled and patted the space beside him. 

I walked over and sat down cuddling into his side. I began to feel drowsy and soon fell asleep.