"Let's do the divorce.."
My heart ached so fucking bad as I uttered those words. My lips were trembling but I'd still perfectly said those words without even stuttering. Inner me though was failing miserably. Almost wanna breakdown, here in the sea of a lot people who's watching us like were in some a movie.
I can't still believed we'll be in a situation like this. Five years..five long years of being married with the guy a loved the most. To the guy I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with. To the guy I'm willing to give up everything even my family. The guy who I only loved..
I can't still believed the scene I'd saw earlier. No, my heart doesn't want to. Halos isampal na saakin ang katotohanan pero hindi ko pa din gustong paniwalaan.
Araw-araw kaming nag-aaway, and today was the worst. Hindi ko inaasahan na aabot kami sa ganito. Masyado ba kaming naging mapusok noon? Para magpakasal nang maaga? We're both twenty-five years old when we'd get married now at the age of thirty planning for a divorce.
Dapat noon palang na-relialized ko na, if he really loves me, he would marry in our own country..where divorce we're prohibited. Nagpakasal kami sa States, aniya'y gusto niyang maikasal sa hometown ng lolo't lola niya. Maybe he wanted to get married in there because he wasn't sure about me. Kapag nagsisi na siya na pinakasalan niya ako, he would file a divorce as easy as that.
Dumoble ang sakit nang wala man lang siyang reaksyon nang sabihin kong magdi-divorce na kami. He wasn't even apologetic when I saw them almost having a sex in front of me. Damn it!
"You won't explain your side? Hindi ka aapila?" Ako pa ang nag-insist na pigilan niya ako!
He shrugged. "I know you, Callah. If you want something, you'll do everything to make it come true. Bakit pa kita pipigilin?"
It was even more painful. Gusto kong umiyak, pero ayokong magmukhang kaawa-awa sa mga pesteng taong nanonood saamin ngayon. And in front of his mistress? Oh, fuck it!
He doesn't looked like the guy I met and fall in love with before. He was comeplety different. Or maybe I doesn't really know him, like what others said? Baka ito ang totoong Primo? The man who'll break your heart over and over again.
Bakit nga ba nagmadali kami sa pagpapakasal? We're in a relationship for five months! After graduation we got married, despite of my family disowning me because I married him. Pinaglaban ko siya! Tinalikuran ko ang pamilya ko para sakanila! And here he is...kissing another girl, making out..almost fucking each other! He didn't respect me! He didn't even respect our marriage!
"Okay! I'll provide for the best of the best lawyer." I arched my brow despite of the tears pooling on the side of my eyes.
Nararamdaman ko ang panginginig ng mga kamay ko. Wanting so bad to fucking break their damn faces. I clenched my jaw, humalukipkip ako sa harap nang babae niya.
The girl was even more agressive! Kumapit siya sa braso ni Primo. Didn't even had a shame! Parang proud pa siyang isa siyang kabit! Nangangati na ang mga palad kong sampalin siya. Ang walanghiya may gana pang pag-taasan ako ng kilay!
Inayos ko ang pagkakasabit ng Chanel bag ko saaking braso. I looked at her from head to toe with a 'very evident' disgusted looked plastered on my face.
"Gosh, Primo. Shame on your standards. Pipili ka na nga lang ng kabit doon pa sa mukhang aso."
The girl offended. Lumapit pa siya saakin. Go on, one more step and I'll fucking use your dog-like faced clean the dirty floor, as dirty as you.
"Who's the dog?"
I rolled my eyes. "You, didn't hear me? Are you deaf? O bobo ka lang talaga?"
BINABASA MO ANG
To Fall Again
RomansaIt was truly, 'love is sweeter in the second time'. We'd fell apart, at the age of thirty I had divorced in the man I loved the most. To my first love, to the man I was willing to spend my life with. We'd learn how to let go and sacrificed. It was...
