Jet and Jade | Black and White 1

Chapter 16: Jade

Damn it!

The eggs were burnt! The bread was... I didn't even know what it was now! The vegetables were a soggy mush! As for the meat, I had stepped on it!

Jet was going to kill me for ruining our dinner! I panicked as I heard her voice and she came down, expecting me to have dinner ready.

"Jade, are you finished?" Jet called.

I gasped as I had a mini panic attack and I tried to cover up the mess I had created. Unfortunately, it didn't pass Jet's scrutinizing gaze and frown.

She groaned when she saw the food.

"You idiot."

"I... I'm sorry..." I muttered. "I didn't mean to..."

"Sorry doesn't change the fact that dinner is ruined!" Jet snapped. "You're never allowed in the kitchen again, understood?"

I nodded sadly.

"Now get out! I will not have you ruining what I make," she said.

I quickly bolted.

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Jet came into my room with two plates of food.

"Here you go," she said grudgingly and gave me one.

I tucked in thankfully. She sat down at the desk and began eating her own plate of food. At least she hadn't not let me eat.

I nearly inhaled the food.

We were silent for nearly the whole meal. I tried to start a conversation to no avail, but all we could do was make small talk. It was so awkward...

Still, what was there to say after one had searched the other's room?

As soon as Jet finished her food, she bolted upstairs back to her room. I bit my lip as I placed our dishes in the dishwasher we had created. I went upstairs to my own room, next door to Jet's.

Why had I ever gotten that urge to search her room?

I was an idiot.

I should never have done it.

I knew I should apologize to her. Not like the insincere, fear-invoked one from before. I had to do it properly, but...

I was afraid. So afraid.

What if she didn't accept my apology? What if she rejected me? What if she abandoned me too?

What would I do then?

Coward.

I was such a coward.

I bit my lip harder.

Apologizing would also hurt my pride a lot.

I was so afraid.

But why? Why was I so afraid?

Jet was my sister. My twin sister. I had known her for my entire life.

I knew she would never do anything to hurt me, even if it meant killing herself, so... why?

I slumped against the wall separating my room and Jet's, eyes closing involuntarily. Tears leaked out of my eyes. I started to sob quietly and my thoughts overwhelmed me so much. I felt so cold right now.

Why? Why was I like this?

I felt so small, like the stars of the sky. Each was so little, doing nothing to help moonless nights. Jet was so great, so much like the darkness of the night, creeping into my heart and hiding the stars, making the bright shining stars disappear.

I felt so overwhelmed by her.

Why was I so stupid?

Why couldn't I be a better person?

I wrapped my arms around myself, trying to keep the cold out. I shivered as I cried, the tears warming my icy cheeks. Yet they only warmed me for a second before I felt even colder than before.

Why was I always so afraid of everything?

Why couldn't I be like my twin sister, dauntless and protecting?

Why did I have to be myself, cowardly and hurting?

It was like she had the world upon her shoulders, yet I seemed to be only watching as she bravely held the world up.

Why was I such an idiot?

Why couldn't I be great like Jet?

I wanted to protect her too. I wanted to be strong. I didn't want her to always be the one blocking rain and storm for me.

But I was just too weak.

Yet why, why was I so weak?

Why?