cruel intentions | kylo ren.

chapter thirteen.

you were a deadman.

kylo ren stared at you, a grin on his face and your heart could be heard in your ears. your breath hitched, the pit of your stomach bubbling with terror and anxiety. he tasted your lies and betrayal on your lips, so easily. you could feel yourself starting to get sick to your stomach.

ren looked sinister, vile and monstrous, his grin simmering down into dullness, a dark expression on his face. his eyes had sunken into yours, creeping and burning through your soul. the fear and unknown ate you with each passing second. you wished you knew what he was thinking about.

"please don't hurt me.." your shaky voice pleaded, hush and frightened, your heart getting louder. kylo started to take slow, methodical steps towards you, as your feet moved you backwards and were afraid of tripping.

"why would i hurt you, hm? why do you think i would hurt you, little flower?" kylo asked, eye twitching and your mouth opened, ready to speak until you were walloped in the jaw with a hard weapon, knocking you down to the ground. he held his lightsaber in his hand, clenching tightly in fury and you could see black dots in your vision, head spinning. "you're a fucking whore."

a copper taste filled your mouth, spitting it out and saw your blood mixed with your saliva. you were trying to stand again, falling back to the ground as his hilt struck you in the jaw once more, your head hitting the ground harshly. tears formed in your eyes with the black dots that resurfaced to your vision, and more blood piled into your mouth.

"you're filthy and disgusting." kylo sneered, clipping his hilt back to his belt and his fingers curled into your hair, dragging you to your bedroom by it. you frowned, blood staining your teeth and you sniffled, your body weakly colliding onto the bed.

a harsh grunt seethed out of you, your head on the thin line of exploding and blacking out. ren was fast to take off the clothing you had on, back handing you in the snap of a second and you moaned, jaw aching.

"if you wanted to be toss around that desperately, should have spoke up. i know many people on this ship who need a filthy cunt to fuck for their own good." ren sneered and you couldn't speak, panting with every bare breath you had, losing consciousness when his hilt attacked your jaw again.

the hit had caused more blood to spew into your mouth, using your weak muscles to sit up and ren took a step back to watch you cry. you spat out blood and a back tooth out, tears stuck in your throat, coughing loudly.

the end of his hilt was pointed under your chin, holding your head to focus on him though your vision could barely make out the expressions and looks on his face. "i cannot wait for the day you die so i can fucking celebrate with the resistance and forget your fucking pathetic face." you spat, blood drying at your lips and you could still taste it in your mouth.

"you have been saying that for quite some time now. i do not see it becoming true, little flower." kylo acknowledged and you breathed heavily, wanting to punch him. by simply looking into his eyes, your stomach swooshed around with more rounded up fear and impatience. "but something in that pretty little head of yours says you don't really that.. you just want me to stop."

"thanks for peeping into my head, creep. that's an invasion of privacy."

"not certainly an invasion when your thoughts are so loud and difficult to ignore, princess," he placed his hand on your cheek, the warmth of your cheek placing upon it and though you had the urge to push his hand away, you didn't. instead, you fell into his eyes and lips curled into a thin line, speechless to him. "make up your mind. you are not clear on what you want."

ren was right─ you had not been clear, but have been conflicted and lost. your mind spun with the warping thoughts that tended to bite at you, and you blamed him for all of it. you blamed him for making you feel this way─ lost, exhausted, drained, and hopelessly falling for him. you knew that's what he admired and dreamed of, yourself being a visible idiot to that.