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"Ngl this guy contradicts himself worse than a cow screaming "I'm a chicken"."
True to what they said
He only cared about himself
He lied and tried to deceive the oblivious
Whether it was to hide something he doesn't want us to see
Or because he truly believed he was superior
People hated him for it
I was in no place to judge him,
For what he was - was also a part of me
So I catered to him
I assumed he would stay If I became who he wanted
That's how it's always worked
But it wasn't enough for him like it was for the others
I was never going to be enough because I wasn't him,
his version of perfect
That's what made it fun
Like a Russian roulette
Everytime I opened that chat
I took the chance of losing him
I took pleasure in the danger
And in the unknown
The end wasn't what I had envisioned
Twas rather anticlimactic compared to the one I had fantasised about
What drove him away in the end wasn't even my fault
But the act of others hurting his ego
And having a clear picture of how much he hated the people inferior to him
I won't lie -
Relief was prominent that day
Another facade depleted
But in all honesty,
I still wonder what could have been
He was a narcissist and
I was someone who craved the abuse
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The Existence of a Disaster
PoetryA collection of Poems, Random Writing, Rants and Creative Writing Pieces. ⚠️ Warning ⚠️ READER DISCRETION IS ADVISED Please see "Trigger Warnings" before reading as this book is extremely graphic.
