Empty Soul (Thomas Sangster)

fourteen

Rebecca

There is a soft beeping coming from my right ear. Slowly my eyes open and I look around. I am in a hospital, but I have no idea how I got here. I look around to find Thomas, but the room is empty. My attention is directed to the door of my hospital room.

A nurse walks in and she smiles once she sees that I am awake. She walks over to the machine that I am hooked up to. She jots a few things down on her clip board and unhooks me from the machine recording my heart beat.

“Do you know where a boy names Thomas is?” I ask her.

She simply smiles at me, “He went to go get something for you. He should be back soon, a few of your other friends are in the waiting area. Would you like me to go get them?” she asks sweetly. I nod my head and instantly get a head ache.

“I wouldn’t do that darling, you have a really bad concussion. Also your left wrist is broken, so don’t put much pressure on it.” She smiles and then leaves the room.

I lay my head on my pillow and wait. The silence rings in my ears which is then broken by the sound of the door opening once more. Dylan, Ki, Blake, Will, and Kaya walk into the room. I give them a light smile.

Blake sits down in the chair next to me and places a bear that is holding a pillow that says ‘Get well soon’ in script. “It’s from all of us.” Blake says and I smile.

“I love it, thank you Blake.” I say and give him a little hug.

“How you feeling?” Ki asks me. He looks a bit guilty like it was his fault that I ended up here.

“Better. My head still hurts though.” I say and he nods.

I talk to them a bit. Dylan and Ki fill me in with what happened after I blacked out. The door lead out to the street of New York, like the whole thing was a cruel joke. They left and I fell back to sleep.

…

I wake up to the sound of someone crying. Someone is holding my left hand. I turn to see Thomas sitting there, tears streak his face. I close my eyes again so he thinks I’m still asleep, just in case he says something.

“Becca I’m sorry. I didn’t want you to end up here. I wanted the best for the both of us. I wanted us to not have messed up lives, I wanted to push what happened to me in that dumb maze behind me. That’s why I went to find you because when I was with you I felt normal, now look at where I put you. I’m dangerous, I don’t want to hurt you. Rebecca I am deeply in love with you and I want to spend my whole life with you. I can’t hurt you more, I can’t do it.” He is about to go on before I can’t take it anymore.

I am about to burst into tears with the words I just heard Thomas say. I open my eyes and he looks at me, with tears streaming down his own cheeks. His eyes are red and blotchy, more tears stream down his face and I sit up. My head pounds, but I ignore the pain.

“Thomas, I love you with all my heart and I will spend the rest of my life with you. You can’t hurt me, I was already hurt, but then I was fixed because you came back. As long as you don’t leave again, I will never be hurt by you.” I say and a tear slips from my own eye.

He embraces me and doesn’t let go. I don’t let him. Honestly anything can happen form here, but there is this feeling in my stomach that nothing bad will have to come over us again. Thomas lets go after a good few minutes.

“I got these for you.” He says and turns around pulling out a bouquet of red roses. “Thought a happy thought could help. Remember when we were kids and we would pick Ms. Ralph’s roses off her bush and get scolded every day.” He smiles at the memory and I do the same.

“We would go back to our tree house that was in our connected backyard and crush them with rocks to make our own paint. I remember it as clear as day.” I smile and more memories flood back.

The creek, the constant trips to London with our mums after my dad died, the tree house memories, when Thomas kissed me when we were only in grade four, everything hits me one by one. Then the one that I hated most, when my mum was murdered and I sat in the tree house and cried. Thomas wasn’t there because he was taken. That was the same year I started at NYU.

My uncle put my mum’s bank account towards me so I could go to the college I have dreamed of since I was fourteen. He took care of the house and Mrs. Sangster tried to help. Nothing can erase that terrible memory.

“Becca?” Thomas asks and he is waving his hand in front of my face. I must have went off in my thoughts.

“Sorry, I got lost there for a second.” I apologize and lean back into my pillow.

Thomas flips on the telly and we watch a few random shows. I end up falling asleep without a warning. Thomas must have dozed off too because he wasn’t trying to wake me up. Dreams of my past floated into my head as I fell into a deep slumber.

…

I was woken up again when the nurse came in to check my blood pressure. Outside was dark and Thomas was no longer there. I turned to the nurse in confusion on where he might have gone. I don’t have to say anything before she told me the answer to my un-asked question.

“He went to go get something to eat, he said something about getting you some good old home food.” She smiles and leaves the room with her clipboard.

I turn the telly back on and let the screen flash as my eyes stare at it, not paying much attention to it at all. The door opens and I sit up to see who it is, but the wall is blocking my view. Thomas soon comes into view with a paper bag in his hands.

“You’re awake.” He says with a smile and sits down in the overstuffed chair next to my bed.

He sets the bag down on the floor. He pulls out some Tupperware containers. I see the trapped steam licking the sides of the container. I look at it closely and see that it fish and chips. My stomach grumbles and he pulls out more containers.

We munch on fish and chips and bangers and mash, two of my most favorite dishes ever. Thomas then pulls out a big slice of cheesecake from the bakery around the corner. We both attack the cheesecake and I am full.

Thomas and I start to watch an old American movie. I don’t know what the title of the movie is nor do I know what it’s about. I still direct my attention to it, even though I am confused. I turn to Thomas and see that he is asleep. I continue to drift off on my own as well.

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One more chapter left.....the thought of that makes me want to cry. The last chapter is going to have a lot of fun information and NO ONE DIES! So chill! Haha anyway you guys have made me so happy and THANK YOU FOR OVER 10K READS! I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!

-Brooke