Hisoka x Illumi oneshots [COMPLETED♡]

Is he more important than me?

Illumi P.o.v
I was going back from my mission as I saw killua and gon walking my way too. I walked quickly trying not to get noticed. "Illumi, I see you" killua said. I stopped and inhale a deep breath. "Hey what may I help you with". I said facing them as I just wanted to get back home. "Um" killua looked awkward as he didnt know what to said. " If dont have anything I'll leave now".

I turned on my heel just to be met with hisoka infront of me. 'Great', "Now now illumi I just got here". I rolled my eyes as I started to annoyed as he then focus his attention on gon. "Hisoka leave him alone." He stopped and looked at me, "and why should I".

I was now extremely annoyed as he wasnt even pay attention to his own boyfriend, more so ever a literal child. Boy, how I envy gon. Does hisoka even care about me? Did he just use me to get closer to them? Do hisoka even love me? Am I important to him? "-mi illumi" I was snapped out of my thoughts as I looked at them seeing very concerned look on their faces even hisoka.

"What" I said as I was confused as what was going on. "Your crying" killua said. I touch my cheek as I felt wet substance on fingers and my cheek. "Oh um i-if you excuse me" I ran away from them quickly. Shit, Shit, Shit, What if they heard what I said. I ran to a corner away from the public as I slid down the wall and started crying more. I hate it, I hate it so much, I hate showing emotions, I hate being jealous, I just dont know why. Am I even important to people, the society?

Hisoka P.o.v
"I think you should go check on him" gon said as I turned and looked at him. The look of worry on both their faces. "Yeah I will." I waved them bye as i walked looking for him. Geez how far did he go. I looked to the part where it was more out of the public eye as I heard crying. "Illumi" I whispered as I walked towards the noise. The noise stopped as I heard his voice. "What" I walked over as I tried to hug him but he pushed me away. I was confused as he was acting like that. "What the hell illumi, what's wrong?"

He turned away as he said nothing. I was getting annoyed on his behavior but I didnt wanna yell just yet. "Is it about me?" I asked trying to figure it out. "Yes" he said and pushed some of his hair behind his ear. "Then what's is it about" I said trying to get closer. "Nothing" he then said again which got me pissed off. " Illumi if it's about me I want to know what I did wrong" I puffed out. " I SAID NOTHING" he yelled as he tried to get up, but I trapped him between my arms. " ILLUMI IF ITS OBLIVIOUSLY ABOUT ME I WANT TO FUCKING KNOW" I yelled at his face as I stopped and looked to see illumi crying. Shit. "Illumi I-", "IS HE MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME" he cut me off.

I looked at him confused as I wanted to know who he meant. "Who?" He cried harder as he got frustrated. "GON, IS HE MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME, YOU DIDNT EVEN SAY HI TO ME NOR SHOW ME AFFECTION, YOU JUST WENT STRAIGHT TO GON LIKE HE WAS YOUR BOYFRIEND. IM RIGHT FUCKING HERE IM YOUR BOYFRIEND, DO YOU EVEN LOVE ME?" I was shocked as illumi had all this built up. "What cat got your tongue". Illumi scoffed as he tried to push off me. "LET GO" He yelled as he struggled to get out my grip. "Illumi stop" I said and hugged him. "WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO HUH, what are you gonna fucking do". He laid in my chest giving up and just continued crying.

Illumi P.O.V
"I'm sorry I didnt noticed you felt this way, I know that I wasnt showing you love and affection lately, there has been somethings on my mind just for you. No, gon is not more important than you. Your my light, my world, the only person who understand me. I would never ever try to hurt you in anyway. I love you too much for that." I started crying after hisoka said that. "Why"? I said as he just out his head in my chest. "Cause I love you Illumi Zoldyck".

I hugged him tight and buried my head in his chest. "Let's go home yeah?" I nodded as he carried me bridal style. "W-wait hisoka I can walk myself." He shook his head and smiled a actual genuine smile that nobody seen but me. " Just enjoy the ride." I smiled as I laid my head in his chest soon dozing off. "Sleep tight illu and remember i love you alot" hisoka said before i fell into a non-reality life.

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