Say Okay (ON HOLD)

Chapter 14

Esmea's pov

“Harry please your making this harder for me to walk away.” I said looking around anywhere but his piercing green eyes .

“Then don’t.” He whispered taking my hand in his.My body shivered from his soft touch. I missed this more than anything the feeling of hid soft skin on mine. But I don’t want this.

“Harry I don’t want history to repeat itself.” I confessed looking straight into his eyes. I could barley talk. It took all my strength to form a sentence.

“I won’t let it. Just want to talk.”

“Harry I can’t do this. I’m glad your well but I just can’t I have to go.” I said pulling my hand out of his grasp. I couldn’t look at him anymore, so I started running away towards my small car. I hoped in and drove away . This time I hoped history wouldn’t repeat itself.

Driving to the grocery store my heart was pounding . My palms were sweaty.

As I pulled up to the grocery story I noticed a familiar looking lad. No I knew that face from anywhere. My knight in shining armour.

Niall Horan.

He was my rock throughout the tour , throughout Harrys and my brake-up. He was my shoulder to cry on. He was my bestfriend. He still is.

“Niall.” I called. He spun around on the spot, looking around the car park he spoted me his eyes light up before running up to me before picking me up.

“Essy. What are you doing here?” He asked spinning my around

“Going to get some food, cause its grocery .store” I replied.

“Of course silly question.” He said placing me back down .

“How have you been?” I asked crossing my arms over my chest, before walking off.

“Really good. Bit busy but you know all comes with the job.” He said walking along side me.

“How is everyone?”

“good haven’t seen Harry in a while.”

“Why doesn’t that surprise me.” I said to myself.

“oh come on Essy he’s changed a lot since then.”

” I’ll believe that when I see it.” I said grabbing a trolley.

“He misses you. Ya know.” He said grabbing a coke .

“That’s nice.” I said grabbing myself a drink also. Diet coke of course.

“Essy are you really gonna let what happened between you and him get the better of you?” He asked stopping the trolley so I couldn’t move.

“It already did.” I said quietly. But from the look on his face he heard what I had said about Harry .

“I know what he did was unforgivable but we all miss you. And I know he does to.” He said giving me a tight hug.

“I miss you guys too.” I said into his chest. “I just don’t want to put my heart on the line again.”

“then don’t.” Niall replied.

I wish it was that easy.

“look Es I know you don’t want to hear this but don’t you think you should I don’t know get over it. I mean it was years ago.”

“You don’t understand.” I said grabbing a box of coco pos for Darcy.

“Then explain please. I want to understand what he did to you that was so bad that it made you un-reachable for months on end.”

“Niall don’t ask me this. It’s a touchy subject for me.”

“It’s always a touchy subject for you. I mean you moved on and had Darcy with another man.”

“Don’t you dare bring Darcy into this. It has nothing to do with her.” I whispered, half yelled.

“Oh really. Don’t you think it’s strange how Darcy got her name?”

“what are you talking about?” I asked grabbing some milk, before putting it in the trolley.

“If Harry had a daughter he said he would call her Darcy.”

“My life doesn’t revolve around him. I can make my own decisions. When Harry said to me that if he had a daughter he would call her Darcy it was just a coincident.”

“Harry has a son called Trevor.”Niall spoke.

“That’s a lie.”I said shrugging my shoulder.

“It’s not trust me.”

“Even if you are telling me the truth what has that got to do with the price of eggs?”

“He called his son Trevor.”

“So. Your point.”

“You told him that if you had a son you would call him Trevor.”

“Coincident.”

“Face it you both need each other. Your blinded by the wall you both have up.”

“what wall?”

“The wall that is blocking you both from the truth. You both need each other. You both know it but neither of you are willing to try to fix things.”

“Niall are you listening to yourself right now.” I said grabbing some Nutella.

“Yes.”

“Then you should know that you aren’t making any sense what so ever. Your saying that me and Harry both physically and mentally need each other but we both can’t see it because there is a wall blocking us from the truth.”

“Exactly. I was hoping you would catch on.”

“Your crazy.” I said walking up the the checkout with Niall walking being me carrying his supplies.

“Oh look who just showed up.”Niall said pointing towards the sliding door. I looked over to see Harry walking in with his head down.

“Oh shit.” I said under my breath. I put my head down, hoping he wouldn’t see me.

“Miss are you okay.” I looked up to see the kind old lady looking at me with a concerned look on get face.

“Um yeah sorry. How much do I owe you?” I asked without taking my eyes off Harry .

“$24.50.” She replied.

“Here you go keep the change.” I said quickly’ I grabbed my stuff before walking out the door, Niall close behind.

“That went well.” He said grabbing the trolley.

“tell me about it.” I said sighing.