///fun fact this was not a planned part
but i couldn't stop myself because
i thought of a part two idea & i
couldn't get out of my head &
it was driving me crazy, so
here it goes lol\\\
///this will probably
be really short
sorry lol\\\
-i exist///traves×cooper
chapt. 02/02
i slam my phone on the table beside me, i don't know why i thought answering the phone would be a good idea, i don't know why i thought this time would be any different then any of the other times. i know why he's not around anymore, i know why me & my mom left when i was 5, i know almost word by word what to expect yet here i am; sitting in the kitchen upset, disappointed with myself, & crying.
i sit there hands in my curly black hair, elbows on my knees, & slight tears streaming down my face, my father's words vibrating in my head. i can't get them to stop- get them out, they won't leave & are so loud, i don't notice cooper or his soft questioning words, not until he rests a gentle hand on my shaking shoulder & he squats in front of me, worry plastered on his beautiful face, i tense at his touch but slightly relax. he puts a careful hand under my chin & makes me meet his worried gaze,
"trave?" he questions, "what happened baby?" he asks & wipes a tear from my cheeck, i shake my head & rest it on his shoulder, he rubs my back & whispers sweet little nothings. i, after a moment, take a deep breath,
"can- can we go to our room?" i ask, voice shaking, he nods his head,
"of course love." he says, we separate, & walk to our bedroom. he sits with his back to the headboard, i sit on his lap, he wraps his arms around me & kisses the back of my neck,
"do you want to talk about it?" he asks against my neck, i shrug a little unsure if i can stomach it but decide i should,
"my dad called," i say shakily & cooper raises his eyebrows in surprise, "we talked, well he did most of it when i told him my job & who i'm dating...." i sigh sadly & close my eyes as i remember his horrible words dipped in poison, cooper rubs my back slowly & i continue,
"most of his talking was really actually yelling, he has a lot of opinions- none are positive & i tried to talk to him but he just kept on insulting me, he wouldn't stop calling me all these horrible names & how he'll kill the fag i've been sleeping with- his words not mine, and i- i just- i knew it was a bad idea- i know, but i still want my dad to love me you know? But everything- & i mean everything in that conversation was- it was all negative- it was all directed at me......i just want him to love me." i finish with a deep breath in & a very intense stare at the mattress, he flips me around gently so i'm looking at him,
"you do not deserve him, his love or kindness- nothing. & i know that's hard but some people will never be able to accept you & you have to accept that & drop those people." he takes a deep breath & continues, "i love you travis but you have to let those people go, seeing you like this kills me." he says & i shake my head sadly,
"how can i do that though, drop my dad like that? i want to make this work..." i say & cooper shakes his head,
"maybe one day but for now send a text saying you won't talk to him until he accepts you fully & block his number, that will show him you're serious, you wont take his shit until he starts to accept you & love you." he says firmly, i run my hands through my curly hair,
"i should, shouldn't i.....i don't think i can stomach another phone call from him like that." i say but mostly for me, i take a shaky breath in & out, i grab my phone from my pocket & unlock it, go to my contacts, i the open the one that says dad & start to text to him, once i'm done i clear my throat & read it for cooper,
"dad, since our last phone call i've been thinking & i realized i have to cut the negatives from my life & that means you, untill you can fully accept me & love me you'll be blocked." i finish & meet coopers eyes that are full of pride, "was that good?" i question, he nods so i send the text then block the number, cooper rubs my back & hugs me, i hug back & we stay like that for moment,
"i'm so proud of you, i know how hard that was for you but i'm so glad you did it." he says & pulls back so he can look at me & kisses me,
"celebratory ice cream?" i ask smiling & he shakes his head laughing,
"you deserve it trav, anything for you." he says & we leave to get ice cream.
it was hard cutting my dad out but once i did i felt a weight leave my shoulders, i felt free. i love my dad but i love & value myself & my mental health more, i'm thankful for cooper without him gently pushing me into doing that i would have never done it, i love him & i hope my dad, once he accepts me, will love cooper too.
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