What Happened? - Sanders Sides Patton Angst

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Third POV:

All the other sides were sitting on the couch, including Thomas, when Virgil and Patton appeared.

"Patt!" Remus cried, jumping up and hugging Patton. Patton let out a small squeak mixed with a whimper when pressure was applied to his wounds.
Janus stood as well, but didn't get too close.
Remus kissed Patton deeply and Patton kissed back. "Are you okay? You haven't eaten anything all day, have you? I'll go make you a sandwich," Remus said, running into the kitchen and pulling random things out of the pantry.

Patton and Janus looked at each other for a moment before Janus burst into tears again.
"I'm so so sorry! I was a h-horrible boyfriend!" He scooped up Patton in his arms, hugging him tightly, still sobbing.
"It's okay, JanJan. I-it was an accident," Patton hugged back, rubbing circles in his boyfriends back to calm him. Janus looked at Patton, not letting go. "A-are you s-sure? Y-you don't need to- to forgive me," he sniffled.
Patton smiled warmly at Janus and rested his head on his chest. Remus then came over, much calmer, wrapping his arms around Patton, as well.
"I love you guys"
"We love you, too, cookie"

Patton giggled a little and looked over at Virgil, who locked eyes with him and sighed, giving him a look as to say 'you still need to tell them'. Patton nodded, letting go from the hug.
"Janus, Remus, Thomas? Can me and Patton talk to you in the kitchen?" The three nodded, and Janus walked into the kitchen, followed by Remus and Patton, who were holding hands, Thomas right behind them.
Virgil turned to the remaining three sides on the couch, who haven't said anything this entire time. "We'll be back. Don't go anywhere." The three nodded and Virgil turned back, following the others.

"So, what do you need?" Thomas asked, leaning against the counter. Remus was seated on the counter, and Janus was putting away the random ingredients Remus brought out. Patton and Virgil were standing next to each other. Patton looked at Virgil, letting him talk. Virgil sighed.

"When I went to get Patton...he was- um...cuttinghimselfwitharazor!" Virgil yelled. "What!?" A shout was heard from the living room. Whoops...Virgil looked at Patton, who sighed and rolled up his sleeves, revealing the bloody bandages.

Almost everyone was in tears. Remus had jumped down from the counter and now had one of Patton's arms in his hands, examining the bandages, quietly crying.
Janus had come next to Remus, covering his mouth, crying for the third time that day.
Thomas was crouched in the corner of the kitchen, his breathing uneven as he sobbed into his knees.
Roman, Logan and Carelessness were all quiet, in a more shocked state.

"Did this start today or..." Remus mumbled, locking eyes with Patton. Patton's gaze shifted from Remus to Janus and down to the floor, signaling that this wasn't the first. Remus inhaled sharply and looked at Janus.

"Patt...why didn't you tell us?" Janus asked me.
"I-I didn't want to worry you. It started right after I became a d-dark side. I'm sorry!"
"Patt"
"N-no it's fine I promise to s-stop"

Time skip, Patton POV:

I was back in my room, laying on my bed. Janus and Remus had followed me in after our conversation and took anything sharp they could find. I had promised to stop, but they wouldn't understand how hard that would be. The truth was, I don't know how to stop. It's been the way I've always dealt with my problems, even as a light side. The only difference is as a light side I didn't have access to sharp things. I put hair ties on my arms instead. That way, I could still wear my normal outfit so no one got suspicious. Stopping would be very difficult.

I'm addicted.

I can't tell Janus or Remus. They would worry too much, not that they aren't already worried.

(A/N: It's two o-clock, and i don't know what I'm doing anymore...)

I sat up and looked around, wondering if they left any sharp items on accident. Realizing they didn't, I layed back down and rolled over, falling asleep almost instantly.