Music of Fame

12

"12 pm pa labas ng results!"

Aj encircled his arms around my waist, giving me a back hug and pulling me closer to him. I was holding my phone, still refreshing the site of UPD, kung saan makikita ang results. 

"Chill lang, Sky." He puts a strand of my hair at the back of my ears. "Makakapasa tayo." He restes his chin on my shoulder. 

"What if, hindi? What if, hindi tayo makapasa?" I sighed. I put down my phone and decided to wait until 12 pm, it's already quarter to 12 naman na.

"Don't think of that way! Makakapasa tayo! Sayang naman 'yong sleepless night natin kung hindi tayo makakapasa." 

"Iiyak talaga ako pag hindi tayo nakapasa. Wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko talaga sa pagkuha dito sa UP. Nag take lang ako ng exams kasi gusto ko, pero hindi ko alam kung kaya ko o makakapasa ba talaga ako." I pouted, leaving out a heavy sigh. 

"Minsan... Hindi pala minsan, lagi. Matuto ka ring magtiwala sa sarili mo. Hindi mo naman kailangan ng ibang tao para lang magtiwala ka sa sarili mo. You don't need others validation. Kung sabi nga nila na 'Love yourself before loving others.' Ganon din dapat sa sarili, ha?" He pinched my cheek before letting go of my waist. Both of us, sat down on the edge of my bed, still waiting for the results. 

"Ewan ko ba. Wala lang talaga akong tiwala sa sarili ko. Minsan, hindi ko alam kung tama pa ba ginagawa ko o kung para sakin ba talaga 'tong tinatahak ko. Natatakot din ako na baka pinipilit ko lang?" I looked down, looking defeated.

"Sky, sa tingin mo ba, ilalagay ka diyan ni Lord kung hindi ka para diyan?" He held my chin up. "I'm here. Believing in you, seeing your worth and your beauty. I believe and trust in you, love." He placed his hand on my head. "I love you," He leaned a bit and looked at my eyes, leaving a warm smile.

Aj was so good at motivating me anytime. I want to do it too with him, para naman maibalik ko sa kaniya ang motivation pati na rin determination na binibigay niya sakin. Alam kong kailangan niya rin 'yon, ginagawa ko naman, pero minsan parang kulang. But atleast, I tried my best and I will still do my very best para maappreciate niya 'ko. Because me? I really appreciate him, his effort especially his existence. 

"I love you," I was so close at crying. Buti na lang, lagi niya pinapatatag ang luob ko. He makes me strong woman day by day. 

"Pasado o hindi, mahal pa rin kita." He cupped my face. We were about to kiss this time! But my phone alarmed! It's already 12pm! "Hays, epal na alarm." He shook his head before letting go of my cheeks.

"Should I open the site na?" I looked at him. He just gave me a one nod and I immediately opened the website. "Just take a look." I gave him my phone and I looked away. 

"Okay," He got it and started scrolling to find our surnames on the list. Hindi naman mahirap hanapin, mahirap kapag wala sa listahan. "Babe," He tapped my shoulders. Tumingin din naman agad ako sa kaniya. 

"Ano? Ano resulta? Pasado ba?" I panicked.