Music of Fame

36

"Are you okay? You seemed problematic, love." 

I heard Aj's voice from the door of the balcony. I was sitting here, looking at the view and thinking somethings related with our work. It's not that heavy but my anxiety is triggering me. Ang daming thoughts na pumapasok na hindi ko alam at kinakabahan lang ako para sa bukas. 

"Hmm, coffee, love." He handed me a mug of coffee. He sat beside me and we're together watching the city lights.

"Thank you." I whispered while looking at him. I took a sip on my mug before looking at him again.

"What's our problem?" He seriously looked at me. It feels like, he was ready to listen. Really ready.

"Nothing. It's just.. sa tingin mo, kikita 'yong movie?" I asked, while looking at him. "It's my first filipino project." I let out a heavy sigh while looking at the view. 

"Kung kumita nga 'yong mga palabas mo sa ibang bansa, dito pa kaya sa pinas? Kilala ka rin dito." He gave me a convincing smile. "Kumita man o hindi, proud pa rin ako sayo. There's always a next time." He nods. "I'm always proud of you. You finally achieved your dreams and you're doing great everyday." He caressed my hair.

"Thank you. Natatakot lang ako para sa mga bukas." I told him. "Ewan, ang ewan ng feeling." I shook my head.

"I will always be here by your side." He made me lean my head on his shoulder. "I'll try my best to protect and comfort you." He said while caressing my hair. 

"Argh, thank you." I felt complete and okay now.

He cupped my cheek with his hand. Now, we're just looking at the view. How the cars move and how bright city lights are. We remained quiet for a minute, wala. Ganito lang kami, kampante kami basta nasa bisig kami ng isa't isa. This is real home. Completeness.

"Do you have any idea kung sino may hawak samin ngayon? As in management?" He suddenly asked.

"Nothing." I shook my head a bit.

"Good." He caressed my cheek. "Let's sleep na. Maaga pa flight natin tomorrow." He stood up and just looked at me, waiting for me to stand.

"Can we dance? Just like old times?" I shyly looked at his eyes.

"My pleasure." He smiled while offering me a hand.

I held his hand and stood up. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his arms on my waist. We started swaying slowly. I slowly looked at his eyes, I felt butterflies and a feeling that I can't tell what is it. When our forehead touch, our eyes automatically closed. Feeling this surreal moment. With or without label, I'm really thankful for what we have. He's there, I'm here and that's okay. Kesa naman sa wala. 

As long as we're together, I'm secured and complete.