kiss my cuts ❥ poetry

hope you think of me high.

i get high all the damn time
because at least once i am
i forget about the sad things temporarily.

i don't realize how high i get
until i can hear my own thoughts
screaming at me.
getting high isn't fun anymore
because now i'm just more focused
on all the fucked up shit this world
has thrown to me.

every step i took with hesitation
because i didn't know if what i was doing was right
someone was always there to input their judgement
so i just stopped speaking.

being high isn't even fun
when you're sad and upset all the time
it'll only make your high worse
i drown in paranoia
i choke on my own words
because being high isn't fun
when you have no joy to find while you are high.

faded dreams
are what make me believe
in finding happiness.

-my heart is built to last more than a night