Enough | A Bryles story

Fifteen

You left your mark

Briar's POV

It broke my heart hearing that my boyfriend had hidden this from me. I hate that I had to find out from his best friend. I hate that I'd even overheard Myles's conversation with Kiara. At this point, I don't want to think about anything anymore.

Every thought keeps leading back to the same one over and over again. "Myles and Kiara... they had an on and off thing, they weren't together but they did things that couples do," Kolton had said.

"Friends with benefits?" I had asked, and Kolton nodded.

An hour later, I'm still here, lying on my bed. My eyes searching for an answer on the ceiling. But there was none. Nothing could beat the hollowness inside me. Not even the peanut butter choc chip cookies that my mum bakes.

It's strange, because they're always my go-to comfort food. When we didn't have any around, I would get out the ingredients and make it myself. Cookies are quite simple to bake. They don't take too long either.  At the same time, I enjoy eating some of the batter, no matter how many times my mum tells me not to, I still do it anyway. I feel a faint smile creep up my face.

In times like these, it's not hard to appreciate the little things in life. Sometimes it doesn't seem significant then, but later on it will be. My phone has also been blowing up with texts and missed calls. I turned it off for the time being. I know he's trying to reach out to me, but I can't bring myself to answer. It's been peaceful without it pinging with notifications.

Myles does owe me an explanation, it's just not a good time to hear it. His past still affects now. Yet I don't understand why he never told me about it. He knows that Kiara and I aren't exactly what you call 'friends', even before all of this. I usually get along with everyone, but they are a few who make it a little more difficult than needed. Sure, I did try my best to keep a level head around her. Some days don't line up with my feelings and that's when I cave in.

I close myself out from others.

On days where I'm at my absolute lowest, you can tell I'm feeling off. Typically I can get around without showing my pain from deep inside, but there are people who can easily spot it. We all hide our true selves under some sort of mask, whether it's intentional or not. Even the most genuine people aren't all a hundred percent to their bones. That's why I've been wary of people lately.

Settling in for the final time in a while really says something, doesn't it? Finally finding some closure to a certain thing is relieving. There's yet to be a moment like that for me.

Another update this week (mission accomplished XD) 

This chapter is mainly Briar's reflection on the recent events. It's quite complicated isn't it? Why does she need to be so worked up over something that happened in the past?

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