Bear

Chapter 38

We drove home, and I pulled into the garage. I shut off the car we just sat there for a minute.

"Why don't you come to my place tonight? It's been forever since we have just had a girls night with you and me. Maybe your Mom can watch Izzy, while Liam works?" Amy said.

The garage door next to us opened as Liam pulled in.

"I'll let you know." I said as I opened my door, and got out.

Amy unbuckled Izzy, and I grabbed the couple bags we had.

"Hi." Liam said stepping behind me and wrapping an arm around me.

"Hi." I said as I closed the car door, and we walked inside.

Amy gave me a small waive as she walked back out to her car and drove off. I turned to Liam and leaned on the counter next to him.

"Amy wants to do a girls night tonight at her place. I was thinking I would drop Izzy off with Mom for the night." I said hoping he would be ok with it.

He shrugged. "Yeah, that works."

"I'm going to go shower quickly, and change." I said as I walked into the bedroom.

I pulled out my phone and texted Amy first.

Mia: Ill come over tonight. I'm going to shower and then drop off Izzy. Maybe be there in an hour?

Amy: See you then.

I texted Mom next, as I pulled out clean clothes.

Mia: Want Izzy for the night?

Lynn: Yes! Please!

Mia: Drop her off in about 45 minutes?

Lynn: I'll be here.

I know mom misses having her. I grabbed a pair of black jeans and a black bralette. I also grabbed a baggy white long sleeved shirt.

I put my hair up in a bun, and just quickly scrubbed down my body. I stepped out and dried off, and wrapped a towel around my body. I walked back into the bedroom, and pulled on a black lace thong, and my bralette. I put on my jeans too, but left them unbuttoned as I went into the bathroom to fix my makeup.

Liam walked in a minute later, and stood behind me, putting his hands on my hips.

"What is Izzy doing?" I asked him.

"Coloring." He said. He ran his hands to the front of my stomach and into the front of my pants over my hips. "You know, if you would have used better lotion when you were pregnant, I don't think you would have had any stretch marks." he said as he looked at my body through the mirror.

I set my mascara down, and pulled his hands out, and buttoned my jeans. "Yeah, probably." I said as I walked into the bedroom and put on my white shirt, and my belt.

"Izzy, honey, say bye to Daddy, were going to Gigi's." I said as I walked into the living room.

I watched as she picked up her crayons and put them away, and closed her coloring book. She stood up and walked to Liam, and he patted her back.

"Bye, Daddy." she said as she went to the garage door, and sat down and put on her shoes.

"Bye honey, be good for Gigi." He said.

I put her in her seat and dropped her off at Mom's before heading over to Amy's apartment. I pulled into her complex, and parked next to her car. Grabbing my purse I walked up the stairs to her second floor apartment, and softly knocked.

Amy opened the door, and let me in. I put my purse on the table and walked to the kitchen. There were a couple bottles of wine, and I picked up the open one and filled one glass to the brim and chugged about half of it.

"Well, that's how tonight is going to be, then..." Amy said with a chuckle.

I took another big gulp of wine as I grabbed the bottle and walked to the living room, and dropped to the couch. Amy brought an empty wine glass with her, and poured an acceptable amount in her glass. She set the bottle down, and turned on the Hallmark channel.

"Oh god, kill me now." I said rolling my eyes.

"We need to talk about today." She said.

"No, we don't." I said tipping my glass up and finishing the wine.

"Ok, sappy romance movies it is." She said turning up the volume.

"I'll make snacks." I said as I poured the rest of the first bottle of wine into my glass.

I went into the kitchen and popped some popcorn as I looked at my purse. I walked over and pulled out my phone, I opened my text messages and scrolled down to his name. I hovered over his picture for a second before clicking off the screen and putting my phone back in my pocket. I finished the wine in my glass again, and grabbed the corkscrew and opened a second bottle. Picking up the bottle and the bowl of popcorn, I walked back out to the living room.

We watched several movies, and between the two of us, we drank all the wine. At about 10:30 Amy was asleep on the couch, and I seemed to be just drunk enough.

I reached into my pocket and pulled out my phone. I opened my text messages, and clicked on his name. I chewed my lip as I looked up at Amy to make sure she was still asleep. I turned up the movie just a little to keep her asleep. I typed a message.

Mia: It was good to see you today.

I hit send quickly before I could overthink it. Less than a minute later the three dots bounced that he was texting me back.

Damien: Don't do this, Mia.

Mia: You're mad.

A few seconds later my phone started to vibrate, and his picture was filling my screen. I took a deep breath as I swiped over to 'answer'.

"Three months Mia! I still can't fucking sleep at night, and you are not only in a committed relationship, but you're ENGAGED." He said almost yelling.

I closed my eyes, "Don't yell at me, please."

"Do you understand how much it hurt to see that today?" he asked.

"I didn't mean to hurt you. I honestly didn't think I would ever see you again." I said quietly.

"Whether you meant to or not it sucks to find out that you're in love with your ex, while I'm still so in love with you!" He said, and I could hear the pain in his voice.

"I don't love him." I whispered.

"What?" He snapped.

"I don't love him." I said a little bit louder.

"Then why the fuck are you with him?" He was getting more and more mad.

"He's Isabelle's dad." I said with a shrug.

"You have to be joking. You are ok with being miserable for the rest of your life?" He asked.

"No, but I can't be happy either." I said.

"You made that choice, Mia. You're the one that ended us." He said, and I knew he was shaking his head.

"I know." I said as a tear rolled down my face.