Kim Jungwoo, known as the unsociable beauty of the campus, paint himself as an ordinary junior college student. But that was just a mask to cover his anxiety-driven life filled with nightmares and self-doubt, which resulted for him to seek for the '...
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Does fucking your cousin considered a sin?
Then if so, my soul was burning in hell, for a long time now. A thing I don't mind one bit when I started this relationship with my step-cousin. Yes, we were not related by blood. So, I don't know if this will be considered as incest or not. Maybe in the eyes of many, but for me, it wasn't.
My mom, who was a lawyer married into the Kim's family five years ago. So, Jungwoo's uncle, a trade businessman became my stepfather and that's how I was introduced into their family. We didn't have this kind of relationship from the start, I remember it was awkward between the two of us when we've first met. But it soon changed into something else when Jungwoo started having nightmares after an incident that happened four years ago.
Those nightmares developed into insomnia and panic attacks that affected his health. So, his father, a minister in the Korean government, asked me to accompany him whenever I can and maybe talked to him since we were the same age. How would you talk to a complete stranger, when you know nothing about them at all? But I knew, I don't have a choice to turn it down. It's either I do this and let the Kim family accept me as their relative or be an outcast and let my mom suffer the consequences.
Thus, I took the responsibility of taking care of him. In every sense of the word.
The hesitance on my part was short-lived though. I started bonding with him right away and learned that despite his cold and sharp exterior was someone who was just lost and alone. I learned that he can be warm and sweet at the same time and that made me feel a whole lot closer to him. Enough said, in just a few months I started falling in love with him.
However, loving him and asking him to be in a relationship with me was out of the question. My feelings were considered immoral and the acts we did were considered as indecent.
I closed my eyes and reminisced our first night together, the anticipation, the nervousness, the arousal, and the release I felt when he gave himself to me. Devirginized and in love, I became addicted.
I got hooked like an addict to a drug I knew that I had to let go someday.
And Jungwoo eventually learned about my feelings. So he set up a few rules if I wanted to continue our 'relationship'.
The first rule was, we should face the reality that our relationship will never progress to something more. Second, we could stop our 'sessions' whenever we want if we were dating someone else. Third, we should respect each other's privacy and promised to keep this a secret between us.
Knowing that I don't have a chance with the given first rule, I accepted the 'fuck buddy' relationship with him with a heavy heart. I thought that if I can have his body then sooner or later I can also have his heart. Except, it was only wishful thinking on my part especially when Jungwoo started dating assholes when we got into college.
