Kim Jungwoo, known as the unsociable beauty of the campus, paint himself as an ordinary junior college student. But that was just a mask to cover his anxiety-driven life filled with nightmares and self-doubt, which resulted for him to seek for the '...
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I jerked awake from my sleep flooded with nightmares. Gasping and shaking, I shifted under Taeyong's arm as I tried to stabilize my breathing. My nightmare felt so vivid and real like it always does whenever my attacks set in. During times like this, I just wanted to be swallowed by the gaping darkness both literal and figuratively as my mind forced me to think dark thoughts.
Last night was something I wanted to forget. If people from the university saw me shook and cried in fear because of the fireworks then I would be the laughingstock of the campus. And the last thing I wanted was for my dad to hear this news. He doesn't know that I'm skipping my meds and I'm sure he would ask me to see my psychiatrist as soon as possible to deal with the matter.
It sucks when I have to relive the terrifying ordeal that plagued me for years. A memory that I wanted to seal at the back of my mind forever. A memory that scarred me for good.
After calming my breathing, I silently turned sideways away from Taeyong. Unlike Yuta who will wake up whenever I had my attacks, Taeyong on the other hand was softly breathing down my neck as he slept unbothered. I guess that's their difference. Yuta is caring all the time but Taeyong can be caring only if he wants to. And now, I missed Yuta again. The way he sharply said that I shouldn't be in that damn party caught me off-guard for a moment. I think he's still mad. But he has every right too anyway since in his mind I just used him all throughout these years.
I let out a soft sigh and closed my eyes in the hopes that I can erase these thoughts in my head. It would be nice if I can have sudden amnesia and just forget everything bad that ever happened in my life. How I wish that's possible. If only Taeyong didn't ask me to accompany him to that damn party then we will not be in this situation.
With my eyes closed, I tried my best to fall into sleep again. I knew Taeyong will not wake up to comfort me so I had to try my best to deal with this on my own. Therefore, I tried counting a flock of sheep in my mind until I lulled myself. On the brink of sleep, I suddenly heard the faint creaking of the door as if it was opened.
At first, I thought it was Taeyong who woke up and decided to get out of bed and went outside but it can't be since I felt his warmth behind me and the bed didn't make any movement. Scared, I kept my eyelids tightly close and pricked up my ear to catch any sound in the room.
It was only after a few minutes when I heard quiet footsteps that seem to be headed in our direction. I thought I was imagining it because the footsteps suddenly stopped but that was instantly erased when I felt a presence inside the room aside from us. Whoever it was, was standing at the foot of the bed, silently, as if it was watching if we were asleep.
It didn't make any sudden movements or sounds. It just stood there for god knows how long until I felt the warm inviting arms of sleep finally took hold of me as I wait for that presence to go away.
