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its been a week jackson has not left my side i havent cut i feel numb 

i woke up and took a shower 

i changed into sweats and paytons hoodie

i got out of the bathroom and there was the bitch

k-get out becca

b-becca

b-no i think ill stay

k-it wasnt a question get.out

she scoff and left

i sat on the bed that is filled with paytons hoodies 

wait they smell like him 

my phone started dinging i looked and it was the one and only payton calling i picked up

'over call'

p-hi angle

k-h-hi

p-whats going on you dont sound like your happy self

he said sad

k-oh im fine 

p-angle i know you 

i sigh

p-please tell me 

k-i just miss you and i feel so bad because of what happened to hop-

p-wait what happened to hope

k-she got kill

i said breaking into tears

p-im sorry angle im coming home in a lil

k-ok

p-i love you so much 

k-i love you more

p-never

i smiled

jackson came in

k-well jackson is here so imma go 

p-ok say hi for me 

k-will do 

p-love you

k-love you

he hang up

payton doesnt know about my cutting im scared of his reaction

jaden doesnt talk to me a lot like before and same with dixie its like if i did something 

they dont even check up on me its only jackson

jax-lets go take the dogs out

i nodded 

k-they are in dixies room 

the dogs love to be in her room because its the hottest

we walked to her floor and i knocked on the door

dix-come in

i came in 

dix-oh its you.... hi 

k-hi

i smiled

dix-wanna hang

jax-we are taking the dogs out wanna come

dix-sure

she picked up alice and i picked up jasper

we went outside