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Pain and Empathy

⚠️ Tw ⚠️: yelling, negative self thoughts, mentions of self harm and suicide, f slur

(In this George is 5'4 and Clay is 6'3)

George's POV
Clay was angry at me, I was being stubborn and didn't want to ask for help getting a cup from the top shelf of the cabinet, resulting in me accidentally knocking it onto the floor

It was made of glass so obviously it shattered, and when I cleaned it up with my shaky hands I sliced one of my fingers, I tried to hold back my tears but I needed up crying anyways

The yelling just made it worse...

"Why do you have to be such a stubborn idiot!?!" He shouted

I just whimpered in response

"You could have just asked for help! Now you've gone and hurt yourself!!" His voice boomed throughout the room, making me cower

"I-I thought I could-" I was cutoff by his yelling again

"You thought you could what George?! You knew you couldn't reach it!"

At this point I started crying harder, hyperventilating, words clouding my mind

Useless
Stupid
Waste of space
Unworthy
Disappointment

These are the thoughts that constantly haunted me, I've kinda gotten used to them because I've had them longer than I can remember...I guess it's because my parents would always say those words to me, degrade me until I completely broke, the voices in my head saying these things sound like them, they've caused me to self harm and even attempt before...I thought it had gotten better but...I guess not.

The worst part was I believed every single word I heard

I just ran, I don't know if it was from Clay or from my thoughts- maybe both

What are you running from this time fag? You're such a fucking pathetic baby

"George-" he tried to grab my arm

"No" I said in a small, scared voice

I continued and ran out to the front steps in the pouring rain and let all my sobs out, I knew he didn't mean to make me feel like this, he already said he had a really stressful day, I probably pushed him past the breaking point

You can't do anything right, this is all your fault, Your pathetic, you deserve nothing

Clays POV
I took it way to far...I should've just told him what he should do next time, tell him it's ok and that he should be more careful...but my anger got the best of me and I yelled at him, I made the person that I love most in the entire word cry- not happy tears, I actually made him cry.

Needless to say I felt horrible, if I could take back what I said, I would. I don't think he could ever forgive me, gosh he doesn't deserve to have someone as terrible as me.

I'm an idiot.

I had to talk to him.

I chased after him, as soon as I got there we said simultaneously,

"I'm sorry"

He was about to speak again but I got my words in first

"I shouldn't have lashed out at you like that, what you did was an accident and accidents happen, you should not be the one apologizing" I said in a calm tone

"Y-yes I should, like you said, I shouldn't have been so dumb and- and so stubborn"
He said, his voice quivering

I sat down next to him, giving him enough space because he looked frightened- and that was my fault...