Lost Memory Of Love

Chapter 29- Permission

I wake up early in the morning, I didn't even know if I really did sleep. I spent the whole night thinking about the kiss! And the words Blake left me! Hindi ko alam kung ano ang irereact ko sa kanya.

After he said that to me last night napatulala lang ako sa kanya at tumakbo na sa loob ng gate namin. I didn't even let a single word slip on my mouth! It felt like my whole system didn't function after that.

Remembering that again gave me the feeling last night. Bumangon na lamang ako sa kama ko atska dumiretso sa CR para maghilamos. I really need to wake up from the reality now, it felt surreal that I remembered a lot from the past. Tinitigan ko saglit ang reflection ko sa salamin. "Will I let him?" I asked myself referring to the words Blake let go.

I just shrugged and went downstairs to eat my breakfast. Good thing that my head isn't hurting. Maybe I don't need to visit in the hospital for a check-up though ang bilin saken ng Doctor ay magpunta sa kanya if I remember a memory. Wala namang effects maliban sa pag sakit bago ko maalala at konting kirot after a few hours. It's not a big deal.

"Good Morning Yaya!" I greeted her. She glanced at me and diverted her eyes again to the food she's cooking. I sat on the breakfast table and looked at the foods that are already served. "Ang aga mo namang nagising ngayon? May lakad ka?" I just shook my head kahit na hindi nakatingin so Yaya. Typical me.

Hinain na niya ang bacon sa hapag kaya kumuha na ako ng kanin. I didn't ate last night! I just drank water from the party. Simubo muna ako ng Isa and then I glanced at Yaya who's watching me. I was about to ask my usual question when she answered it already. "Nasa company na sina nanay at tatay mo" she said. I just nod at her.

Oh right, hindi ko pa pala nasasabi na Nanay and tatay already told me the truth about their business. They merged the company of my true parents to theirs so that they can handle it properly. My brother knows about this and it's okay for me too. Kasalanan naman ng totoo kong mga magulang. They left me!

I didn't also get that mad to nanay and tatay when I learned the truth, it was same with Blake's situation. Though I lived with a lie for a year. It hurts but I understand.

"Yaya why don't you join me? Pakitawag na din ang ibang kasambahay para kasabay na nating kumain." I kindly asked her. Bahagya pa siyang nagulat. Sa tagal ko ng nakatira dito sa bahay nina nanay and tatay which is really one of their houses. Never ko pang pinasabay ang mga kasambahay sa akin. Only Yaya chording. Tatay was strict too pag dating sa bahay.

I suddenly think na Nanay and tatay adjusted a lot for me. For the baggage that my parent's left them. I suddenly felt sad. Sobrang pabigat ko na ba? They even had to move to other houses in order for me, not to trigger my memories. Nahiya tuloy ako sa kanila bigla. I never did a thing for them.

Maya maya pa ay dumating na ang mga kasambahay. We ate together so that I won't feel lonely. They looked happy. I was laughing and talking with them throughout the breakfast. I must do this frequently huh? Para Naman Hindi laging malungkot ang breakfast ko.

Umakyat na din ako pagkatapos. The maids thanked me and I just smiled at them and thanked them too. Dumiretso ako sa pag ligo at nagbihis ng simpleng oversized shirt at maikling shorts. I brushed my hair and put a liptint on my lips kahit sa bahay lang ako. After that I checked my phone. Wala namang chat si Blake. I frowned. Maybe na shock lang siya sa nangyare kagabi that's why he said that. Haist.

I just went downstairs again so that I can relax on our sofa and watch some movies. I have my own TV sa kwarto but it just felt lonely there. Nasa huling hagdan pa lang ako sa baba. Dinig ko na na may kausap ang isa naming maid. Is that Gabriel's voice? I walked through the main door. And I was surprised. It's really Gab, he don't usually go here bakit kaya napadalaw ngayon?